You can't tell me this doesn't hurt, but it has to; it does hurt, im glad it does, it makes me feel alive, it makes work harder to be what i want, to be what i can be, to be all that you ever wanted, but will never have.

I had no intention of writing this down, but all of this is constantly going on in my head... and seeing as theres literally only one person whos going to read this.. idc ( Read more... )

So.. as i've been very stressed out because of the two tests I had on wednesday.. i've finally had some time to relax.. which is good. I actually am about to go out and do some stuff around town that needs to get done before i come down to tampa. I would have left yesterday if i didn't have class tonight.. which is lame.. but im leaving around 7:30 ( Read more... )

I floated on a river for three hours with some friends and lost all my keys and camerons car key... that was interesting ( Read more... )

fuck fathers day, a yearly reminder of the hole in my heart that can't be filled with women, alcohol... or anything else. God knows i've tried.

So I've just realized alot of funny polor opposites with problems that me and sam have ever encountered. It got to the point where I used to always unknowningly put her on the backburner and she'd always text me and i'd not try and contact her as often as she did me, now its the complete opposite... and I always realized that alot of that reason ( Read more... )

So I seem to be going crazy every single day, because the thought of sam sleeping with someone else is literally driving me nuts. We're not together by any means, shes found someone else, and i sort of have too.. but we still call each other.. or atleast I call her. Whenever I do talk to her I'm pretty sure that she purposfully throws things into ( Read more... )

So today I'm here not to talk about my life problems, but instead what I'm currently working on as a side project. Over the years.. for about six to seven years i've been writing poems and songs, some good, some great, some horrible. But my plan is to put them all together in a sort of poem collection thing, and my goal is to team up with an artist ( Read more... )

ok so today i saw Transformers.. and it was quite possibly the best movie i've seen in awhile i recommend it to EVERYONE .. the only bad part of the movie was that they played that damn linkin park song at the end haha ( Read more... )

So ya its been like forever since i've been on here .. but idk y i've decided to come back.. maybe its too late.. lol maybe i just need to write

well alots happend journal.. ugh i graduated and shit.... lol w/e well just skip everything cuz i'm to lazy to write everything .. ugh.. here summary:
summarygraduated ( Read more... )