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Nov 10, 2005 00:55

Okay. So. It won't be too long until I have to face my doctor, again. Normally it is the most akward thing ever, and all I do is blabber. And I have no idea what I am talking about and yeah. So I was considering writing a really long letter and having him read it, so I didn't forget anything I wanted to say. But I have yet to decide if that is ( Read more... )

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hi 17andconfused November 10 2005, 15:37:08 UTC

hi i,m franckel i wish i could say something comforting but i,m don,t know what to say so i just wing dude we're all fucked up we're all depressed misarlbe self-hating and anguish ridden but we're not alone hope you feel better by

sourblaze November 11 2005, 00:21:23 UTC

Rest all day so I can muster energy if somebody needs my help. Fight with a friend or family member? I am there for you. Car broke down and need to be drive to work? I'll be right there. Pass out on the bus and call me at 8 AM to be taken to the hospital? Roll out of bed, I'm racing down the street.

Yet I feel that I am never good enough.

For some reason, you are staking your whole self-worth on how much you try to help others.

A burden to others, is that what I am? The question plays over and over in my head, and I fear facing the answer. Many years ago I told myself to stay around knowing that maybe some would be hurt and I could not bear causing pain to others. What if the negatives of me being here outweighs any positive I can bring to others?Everyone needs a support structure to fall onto when they feel down and out. That's just normal healthy human nature, yet for some reason you feel massive guilt about it ( ... )

sourblaze November 11 2005, 00:23:06 UTC

P.S. Don't be afraid to send me an e-mail (it's on my user info page) if you want privacy.

Re: the letter mrbozo2u November 14 2005, 00:35:09 UTC

Hi Liz ( ... )

Re: the letter xxlizziexx November 14 2005, 05:31:31 UTC

Thanks for the encouragement. I am still swaying back and forth on the decision.

I really don't like this doctor. Him and I have dealt with this on a few accounts etc. It's very in depth crap.

He cannot tell my parents anything. I am almost 20. Once you are 18, you are considered a legal adult, and no infomration can be disclosed. Thank god.