I walk unsteadily until I reach the shore of the ocean and gaze out into the abyss. Beauty. Emptiness. Beautiful emptiness ( Read more... )

I am torn between two EXTREME, OPPOSITE feelings. I really mean the word TORN. I cannot explain this gigantic force that is pushing down on my shoulders... that I can LITERALLY feel this huge pain in my neck, shoulders, and back. Shooting pain ( Read more... )

Way too many thoughts running through my head, but we are going to ignore those and discuss random events ( Read more... )

I'm barely holding on. There are a billion things I need to do, but all I can think of is death. I am unable to force the thought out of my mind. I am so empty and feel nothing. I feel like I am dragging others down. Although there is no trust, there is such beauty in the human race. People are beautiful and amazing parts of living. But it ( Read more... )

It has been proven that nobody cares, and neither do I. So I guess I should not be upset. My parents know I went to the doctor today. But they are always hush hush. Don't ask questions ( Read more... )

I cry, hoping that these salty tears will heal, my ripped up heart ( Read more... )

I am real bored and lonely and blah ( Read more... )

Okay. So. It won't be too long until I have to face my doctor, again. Normally it is the most akward thing ever, and all I do is blabber. And I have no idea what I am talking about and yeah. So I was considering writing a really long letter and having him read it, so I didn't forget anything I wanted to say. But I have yet to decide if that is ( Read more... )

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It is Saturday night and I have time to update. Why you ask? Simply because I feel like shit, cannot even leave my couch, so I cannot make it to the parties. On to other stuff ( Read more... )