life is being more & more frustrating.

a couple of nights ago was by far the worst day of these past few years. yes, ever since my father left i've been recouperating; ever since his five-minute return on monday night i've been nothing but a shell of what i was. i thought it was over, really i did. i think i thought i'd gotten away from all the ( Read more... )

omar is in prison today ( Read more... )

i got lost driving home today. i wasted three bucks worth of gas money & went completely out of my way, but the ironic part is this: while i was trying to find my way out of a random maze of neighborhoods, the shittiest, yet most applicable song came on the radio. you know that one that's like "nobody, nobody gets out alive" & then the guy starts ( Read more... )

...so it's 2:16 and i just watched 2 fast, 2 furious after deciding not to go to school tomorrow. i was pissed that the mustang got smashed up so early on, but the skyline was sweet, & everyone knows i like the evo. everyone who knows shit about cars & actually asks me. girls CAN race, i assure you. i know...i am one. and i do it. and i do it WELL ( Read more... )

i am not going to sleep tonight ( Read more... )

GOD i am fucking DONE i am DONE with all this BULLSHIT BULLSHIT BULL. SHIT. & i'm done with you & your fucking NONSENSICAL WHINING FUCKING NOISE, fucking OVER IT and you're NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING like what you were and i am not I AM NOT WHAT I SHOULD BE so fuck you(!)& fuck this, i am, DONE i am fucking DONE.

i am over you.

I HATE YOUR FUCKING ( Read more... )

sunday:
     x.picked up jenn, a.k.a. doobie.
     x.went to Physical Graffiti; doobie gets her lip & nose pierced.
     x.dropped omar off at work.
     x.jenn&i, a.k.a. doobie&itch, drive to the mall to get our nails done.
     x.came to my place; doobie & i relax to incense&herb.
     x.two hours later, drive to martin's, pick up omar.
     x.drop off ( Read more... )

      i can't stop coughing. & there's crap in my nose that won't come out, along with a cut that won't heal. & i've been using a lot of semi-colons lately, especially where they do not belong...i just want to see if anyone will notice; semi-colons are so misunderstood. & i still have no job, no car. & my mother is going away for two weeks, i ( Read more... )

i stayed at omar's last night. so did monique & slavko (friends of ours). we fell asleep around five a.m., only to be woken up by the majority of omar's screaming family. apparently they needed to go somewhere, & this somewhere could only be gone to at eleven a.m.
         read my keys, family:
WE NEED TO FUCKING SLEEP. after a day like yesterday, ( Read more... )

so.
i.i'm not going to stop writing in here no matter what, though i may make it friends only. comment to be added & i'll consider adding you, once the change is made (assuming it is).
ii.even if i decide against that, i'll be making my emotional/destructive/life-altering entries friends-only. if you want a piece of the action, you might be able to ( Read more... )