yes I am still bipolar, it's a disease that will never go away, but I think the biggest thing I've learned is that no one is going to help me with it, no one wants to hear about it and that even though it's not the healthiest thing ever, I really should bottle it up at least in public settings. I still think everyone hates me, that will never go ( Read more... )

wow it really has been forever since I've posted.i used to be on here all the time

im sorry to anyone I have hurt over the years with my attention whoreingness. it might seem like i like drama but i don't and it may seem like i am the same but i am changed. no one but me will know the truth about how shitty things are in my head but the voices inside. im going to change i am changeing i am change. i cant believe some of the ( Read more... )

I went to gay pride the first weekend of this month, Mat and my sister Megan went with me. I was soooo proud of my little sister being there with me. I won a bunch of weird stuff too: a car wash, 2 weeks of self defense lessons and a 30 minute massage ( Read more... )

I no longer consider Tammy a friend. She hurt me beyond belief. She's been hurting me for a long time and she's basically done something that was the straw that broke the camel's back. I'm done. I'm not ever going to think of her as a friend ever again.

At least now I know who my real friends are.

since the camp out for the Asatru Walpurgisnacht got canceled I am getting dragged to Mat's friend's wedding this morning.... this evening Mat is getting dragged to the blot and sumbel at Roland's house. I feel like a busy and tired bee.

how when everything is going well I kinda don't have much to talk about ( Read more... )

today Mat's friend's girl decided we were going to bbq in the park and it ended up raining and we did it anyway and now Im freezing!!!!

the people there were me, mat, josh, julie and austin oh and julie's little daughter olivia. Josh, austin and mat are all good friends. julie is josh's girl.

so I went to planned parenthood today and i am now on depo. yay!!!! I'm still very happy with my awesome new boyfriend.

so me and eric aren't together anymore. its ok though. i have a kick ass new boyfriend. he's cute and funny and interesting and actually treats me well and the best part is he actually talks about things with me. his name is mat and I met him when i worked at teleperformance. i slept with him back when me and nick were breaking up. i called him up ( Read more... )