Life ain't too bad right now. Andria has been keeping me sane thats for sure. I am with her all the damn time. So much that we are finishing eachothers damn sentences. I just really needed someone in my life to hang out with cause sitting at home waiting for poeple to have time for me just wasn't working and it was driving me crazy. I can't sit at ( Read more... )

Things are going alright right now. Besides me being sick as a dog!!! But anyway** I've been chillin' with my girl Andria alot and it is keeping me sane. I might move in with them... but I'm not sure. But anyway... works pretty good, and my boy situation aint to bad right now... so anyway* I'm going christmas shoppin' tomorrow so I am excited! I ( Read more... )

Wow... I dont even know how to start a journal entry when my head is filled with so many clouds and blinders. I am such a lost cause... I really am. I am so miserable in my own life and how do you prevent that??? Its not like you can just drop it and buy a new life like a cell phone service. I'm stuck with it. And the more I work at being happy, ( Read more... )

I have settled back into the ironic displacement between the happy place(white) and falling completely into dispare(black)! I've faded to grey!!!

There really is no pretending that everything is all ok. Cause its not!!! I am terrified that this is how my life is going to be until the day I die. I will not settle for ordinary... I will not be a housewife and depend on someone else to take care of me... and most importantly I WILL NOT push aside my life long dreams like everyone else just ( Read more... )

Everything is going alright right about now... I have two jobs and I am trying to put my two feet on the ground and KNOW that if worse came to worse, I would be able to support myself. I might be getting a new car... which all of you know I need terribly! And this coming week I am going to SPC and I am going to find out how I can start college next ( Read more... )

Things are going pretty good in my life at this moment. I am attempting to put two feet on the ground. I'm trying to gain responsibility in my own life for myself, instead of depending on so many people to help me survive. I am getting a second job so that I will have a good cash flow. So I am very proud of myself right now. I love my friends... I' ( Read more... )

I have a date with my bestest best friend in the whole wide world tuesday!! Don't anybody ruin it or I will slaughter you in your sleep! lol J/k no I'm not... sure I am... nope. Confused yet? lol I'm in a weird mood and have been for the past day and a half. I am quite certain that it is the hurricane. But anywho... I have no one to talk to so I am ( Read more... )

Hey darlin' I'm really sorry for getting mad at you. Its just... I miss you so much! And I know its terrible to say but I almost wish we were back in the summer again and Johnny was still in Greece. I honestly feel replaced by him and I hate it. I hate that he's always around and I hate that you and I cant do anything together unless he tags along ( Read more... )

I'm looking through my entries in here and its so pathetic... the only time I have ever written something truly happy was when I was with James. Do you know what this says to me??? I'm not as independent as I have blinded my self into thinking I am. I need someone to make me happy... I am always dependent on one person being there for me to make me ( Read more... )