good bye livejournal

had the roughest night ever which can be summed up in one text sent to a friend "apparently tears dont make your beer taste better. i think i have a problem."

I need to find myself, but I don't know where to begin.
I don't know how to answer when someone asks me, "What makes you happy?"

UGH I need a change of scenery... I havent heard from mat yet and he is supposed to be in town.

I really like tall blonde men?

What was said should really have hurt, but... I dont know how to describe the feeling it gave me. It sucked yet I knew that it was somewhat true. They say when kids grow up they learn the difference between right and wrong. That doesnt mean they always choose the right path.

"I'm a free bitch baby."

and that is all that needs to be said

Maybe I can start believing that I really am THE SHIT.
Tonight was insane. I don't know if I'm allowed in the 5star anymore, but fuck it i guess.

Everyone told me not to bring it up but I did and I feel a lot better.

I'm such a dweeb... Ugh I blew it.