So right before i left for Orlando my mom reminded me how right before my grandpa died she had a dream he died and right before my grandma blew out her tire going 90 mph in Arizona she drempt That too.

Then she told me she had a dream that she was going to die in seven days.

I cried most of the way from West Palm to Orlando

So when May rolls around ill be heading home for good. Ive decided Im not happy in Orlando. Im not happy going to school. I hate it. I have a few plans for when I move back to south florida ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like if I died it wouldn't affect people much.

Or if I got badly hurt no one would visit me in the hospital

So I don't sleep at all anymore haha...Its not that bad ( Read more... )

So this is the second night in a row I cant sleep. Last night I went to sleep at 9 AM, but i had slept all day. Tonight Im actually pretty tired but I cant sleep ( Read more... )

So things are kinda............boring. A lot of the times. I Think I'm getting sick again...AWESOME. I still haven't stopped coughing up shit from back when I had bronchitis. Ive been sleeping a lot lately, so now tonight ill probably get to sleep at like 5 which sucks. I have a speech due tomorrow, i cant wait till that class is over. I need ( Read more... )

I think unless I find a reason to stay...I won't be looking for a place to live in the summer

Ive been living in Orlando for 2 weeks and 3 days now, and Ive never felt farther away from EVERYONE than I do now. I have one of my best friends not even 50 feet away from me, but yet he feels miles away. I left my life in West Palm because I was bored of it. I was sick of the same routine everyday. I guess I'm just really looking for ( Read more... )

Different year, most likely same shit

So its Christmas morning and its depressing. The only thing I've been looking forward to for the last 4, 5 months or so is over. It was a shit load of fun, but now it feels like there is nothing left. Nothing to look forward to anymore. No one to really look forward to. I don't know. I feel so lonely right now. I didn't really buy anything ( Read more... )