Why don't I ever learn? Once again, I try to have some fun, and it always backfires. I went to the dance tonight, and it was ok for a little while...but then I had to leave. I hurt so much inside, I thought I was gonna puke. Why, you may ask, do I hurt? The answer is simple: everyone else was happy and having fun. I've come to the conclusion that I ( Read more... )

Just as night follows day, darkness the light, so has my life turned from a happy saga back to sorrow and emptiness. I am yet again adrift in a lonely sea, but this time it was myself who put me there. It was because of me, because of pain I caused others, that I deserve this life of solitude. Everyone I touch ends up hurt, and so perhaps it is ( Read more... )

My life is fucking falling apart! Most of you know that I busted up my knee at football...and I've been told it wasn't all that bad, in fact, it's getting better fast...until now...now I'm told I need surgery immediately! Out of fucking no where! So now, here's my life's standings as of now due to my knee ( Read more... )

sorry kiddos, no time to do much else right now, but let me see how you really feel about me...stolen from Alli_Mo ( Read more... )

Don't turn away

I pray you've heard

The words I've spoken.

Dare to believe

Oh, for one last time

And then I'll let the

Darkness cover me.

Deny everything.

Slowly walk away,

To breathe again

On my own.

Carry me Away,

I need your strength

To get me through this.

Dare to believe

Oh, for one last time.

And then I'll let the

Darkness cover me,

Deny ( Read more... )

It seems that it is true what they say, that the eyes are windows into one's soul, for as I gaze into yours, that's what I feel I see. I understand your deepest wishes and desires without any words needing to be said. Nothing can describe the pure bliss I gain from just looking at you. And as you walk off and meld into the night, the very night ( Read more... )

I wander through the night, my eternal and everlasting friend. I talk to it and it speaks to me. It shows me the truth of everyone and everything. Lies are only as good as the amount of light put on them. Everyone is stripped to their true self in the darkness, stark to all who wish to see. I move through the shadows, unseen and unheard by day just ( Read more... )

Although we just left each others arms, it feels as if we've been apart for eternity. I miss your warmth, you tender touch, your heart beating so close to mine. I miss your breath fanning out across me, and the taste of your lips. I miss the way you look at me, how the look in your eyes makes it seem like you're thinking of everything and nothing ( Read more... )

A lot has happened to me recently, but I don't know if I can manage to write what I mean to write at this time. I'm all excited and confused and depressed and happy and I don't know what else. It's the greatest of feelings, and the worst of feelings, and I love it ( Read more... )

Sometimes you never know what you're missing until you have it, and sometimes you don't know if you have it or if it's there to stay until it's right on top of you, the truth staring you in the face. When you've been in the dark your whole life, the light can be blinding, but it can also be the most wonderful thing you've ever seen. Golden rays ( Read more... )