it's so weird to think that the same people who raced to be at my house by midnight this time last year don't give a shit about me this year.
i already know there will be no calls or texts or visits; just because i know how they are behaving.
it really really sucks and i can't help but wonder why none of them even take a second to consider me and ( Read more... )

yesterday was graduation and i was on cloud nine all day :)
the ceremony was lovely 
i got an excalibur award :D
i did well on my speeches; except that i said stoody instead of student
and everyone noticed :P haha 
i came home...
was surprised with a new car :D haha
went to eat with the family
went to visit gabe who has been surprisingly nice to me lately
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so adrian and i broke up.
it's weird.

i have to go strike that damn set now though :(
i have to be there in five minutes and i just woke up :x

things change so fast; i'm over it.
i'm friends with gabe again,
that's actually really nice haha

into the woods is going better than expected;
yay cast.

graduation is literally around the corner;
yay no more high school.

my birthday is in like two weeks and three or four days :D

idk; i'm just in a good mood :)
the end.

i'm happy because i found out my classes start august 19.
which means i will be leaving the week before that.
which means i will be out of here two weeks earlier than planned.

i need to leave because there are just some things that i keep going back to while i'm here;
which is definitely no good for me.
i just want to meet new people and be happy and ( Read more... )

soooo in a turn of events, austin is no longer my destiny.
as of four days ago my new residence is going to be san antonio :]
i'm still so ridiculously excited :D haha

fiesta texas, sea world, AND the river walk :D
mhm my new home at st. mary's will be amazing.
and i won't have to worry about immature girls i went to high school with ever ever again

i ( Read more... )

i have an awful headache that i can't get rid of.

um i think i tried to break up with adrian the other day.
it was three in the morning and who knows what i was saying.
all i know is we've been fighting like every day lately.
ugh. i'm just tired; emotionally i guess.
i always feel like i'm in the wrong.

austin; hurry and save me.
:[

i'm  tired of this battle for power in our relationship ( Read more... )

first day at the gym was intimidating.
but i found my pageant dress :D
and i might have found a different dress for prom;
we'll see.

um today was decent.
i just wanna talk to adrian but he's busy :[

a whole week away from school, yay :D
i'm just tired of girls, 
they're mean and have obviously forgetten who their loyalities should belong to;
but eh this has happened before so whatever.

according to my countdown, i'm only subjected to 79 more days of this :]
adrian makes me feel bad for being so excited to leave
all our conversations come back to ( Read more... )