in spite of life being backwards lately,
i'm going to go ahead and try out for miss teen el paso or whatever.
haha hey why not, i get a free EP fitness pass for the next two months
and more importantly, scholarship opportunities that don't require an essay

i can't think straight lately.
everyday is just more confusing and makes me feel worse.
it's becoming unbearable to be here.

nothing is right, it's weird.

it's always lame when you don't like your best friends' friends.

in other news, i hope i get into duren hall. 
that places sounds and looks so amazing.
i want to move on already.

i'm tired of failures haha
and i'm even more tired of how offended they get when they realize that's what i've been calling them for the last four years of our lives :] ( Read more... )

life is just weird lately and i don't know what to do anymore.
let's hurry up and graduate so i can move to austin and completely immerse myself in studies i will enjoy.

i've come to realize i'm ridiculously territorial
not even just about adrian haha
but about all my friends.

i'm lameeeeee

tomorrow will be four months with my adriansito
and honestly i've never been happier.
which just makes it that much harder for me to move;
it makes me want to cry every time he asks me to stay ha :/

on a brighter note; i finally got some positive feedback from all this scholarship nonsense 
i'm one of only two texas finalists for one i sent off last ( Read more... )

lots of bad omens at the mall today
haha; primarily everyone & their mom wearing purple :/

it's a new year.
i'm moving to austin this year.
of course i'm scared,
but i'm even more excited than even i realize;
how amazing is it going to be to live in a place like that with two of your best friends :]

i'll finally be 18
i'll finally be graduating...hopefully in white
i'll finally get my yellow dell laptop
i'll finally be done with some of the ( Read more... )

i haven't laughed as hard or as much as i did yesterday in quite some time.
so basically, adrian's friends are the greatest
thankfully they are nothing like gabe's friends.
they actually like me, include me, and don't talk shit about me when i'm not there.
:]
i've also come to realize i am such a boy, it's ridiculous.

today should be fun.
i'm going ( Read more... )

today was the best day i've had in a long time.
i got $300 for passing the english ap test...which i needed cause i was broke for christmas.
the only thing that sucked today was my calculus test.

after cal, i left school, treated my mom to lunch at red lobster,
& missed school the rest of the day to go to the outlet mall for christmas shopping. :]
i got ( Read more... )