like many of us livejournalers... its been a while. but when your out working starting new lives and doing whatever people do... who has the time ne more? but ne ways. since my last entry... i watched my gramma go further into floating away from me forever. i hope i never have to go through ne thing like that again. it was wonderful watching her ( Read more... )

everything is all fucked up right now... i dont feel good... depressed alot and seeing my grandma move one day closer to death that i see her is tearing me apart. everyone around me seems to be having a happy life...i dont even know what is happiness ne more.im so confused all the time, i never want to get out of bed or clean or do ne thing. im ( Read more... )

things have been going pretty good lately... i finally got a damn cell phone!! its a different number tho. i guess you only have like 30 days b4 they cant transfer your old number to a diff phone. oh well. ive been visiting my grandma more often lately with my mom... it so sad and depressing watching her life decay in front of me. i dont know what ( Read more... )

well since last time that i wrote not much has changed... my mom has now been in her appt. for almost a month. its nice and i like the fact that shes only 5 minutes away from me. i get to see her more now. i went to see my grandma last week. she is so different now. her memory is all fucked up and she cant remember simple things, like when shes ( Read more... )

well things havent been that great lately... my mom is moving out... and my grandma is getting worse and probably doesnt have much longer. my best friend wont answer my calls or call me back. but im sure there are reasons, there are always reasons. but whatever. i guess every situation is out of my hands and there aint shit i can to.... on another ( Read more... )

hey what up all... yeah well lately ive been chillin at bills and i think that im gonna be movin in soon. so its all good. im very happy right now and im so excited about it. its not very often that i dont want to be on meds and am barely even upset and all depressed and shit as you all should know. so yeah. oh and i got a fucking job!! it sucks ( Read more... )

yeah... so yesterday was my birthday. it was actually pretty fun. friday i stayed the night with my cousin jessica. it was fun. we watched sorority boys and laughed our asses off!! she had never seen the movie and i cant get enough of it! yeah so i went home early and shit and opened some cards and a present from my parents. i got some clothes so ( Read more... )

right now i am waiting for something to happen... ive been sitting here for a while and im waiting for a call cuz i cant get a hold of someone... yeah so im here picking my ass and being bored. i hate ppl who have nextel. whenever you want to get a hold of someone with it the damn call wont go through. sheesh! plus i might be getting some goodies ( Read more... )

it has been a hell of a long time since i wrote... a lot has happened in the past month or so... to shorten it all into one sentence, i have no job cuz i quit, im all out of my medication, i got another kidney infection and was sick for christies birthday, and me and sam broke up. wow... that was a handfull. oh yeah, and there are only 2 more ( Read more... )

hi... yeah i havent updated this in a while but ya know how it is. yeah.. i really dont know what to say... me and sam have been watching smallville... its an awesome show.... yeah... sara jones is gonna be working with me and christie at kiddie kandids ( Read more... )