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  Olivia Idunno Amos
  ja chce miec pasje
  chce znalesc sobie sens zycia

there are memories that get out of your head and come together into an imaginary axe that hits your chest, and together with it breaks your made-of-glass soul bit by bit. im not sure how much of the pain is actually sweet, which part of the 'i remember those moments' is sweet to be reminded of. all i know its hard to let go. and most of the time ( Read more... )

its not healthy to think that much. actually, its not healthy to think in this society. why did i start thinking again ( Read more... )

why does everybody has to have somebody that got away ( Read more... )

its ok. i know you want me. until you want me its fine. i dont mind. ill be in your nightmares and youre sweetest dreams. you think of me and i wont make it easier. i promise. 

and im writing about this again, i guess this are the issues i have in my life, will always be. he taught me all i am now, i believed him its the right way, but now i realize that if he said it, he didnt really meant it. nobody does. i do tho. i see nothing wrong with it. maybe if it will happen to me i would understand... i do not want to live it ( Read more... )

broken. smashed. into pieces. for the n.th time, and i am miserable. truly. my chest is pumping air into me and i feel like exploding and already driven over.                   
i dont hate you, how could i? i hate that you dont like me the way i do... 
how can i hate you silly? im sad, that kind of sad, the one after M.

4to ty dumaew, 4to mozew zyt 4itajka knigi, pokupaja tufli i vypevaja kofe? dumaj ewe razok. ne mozna. tebe nuzna rabota. znaew kogoto kto rabotaet v horowom agenstve, ili u nih est svoja sobstvennyi biznes? togda prikolno, a vot esli ne znaew? nelzja tak, nelzja.

dumaj, dumaj 4to ty ho4ew, dumaj 

its my last night here, in the house where everything started both with the girls and A., and also with my housemates, all the fights and dissapointments, in this room i talked to all of them and of you, i cried of sorrow and happiness... i am gonna miss this room and everything that happened here. it gave me happiness and sadness, but first of all ( Read more... )

today i found out that if im on time then most probable it wont end great. also, people are enigmas. you would think nobody can be trusted. but the thing is, what is one supposed to do? live in a state of "i cant trust anybody ever" all the time ( Read more... )