my mental state is like some vague amalgamation of apathy and rage and sadness right now. i'm not a suicide risk or anything, but I also no longer really want to exist. there are many times where I feel a sudden surge of motivation, to do things, to try harder to get a job that will lead to a good career, but those moments are so fleeting. I'm ( Read more... )

I need to get something off my chest, and it may make me sound like a jealous bitch but I really just need to express how I feel somewhere ( Read more... )

I am seriously considering getting a new puppy when I get paid next month. We already have enough pets to qualify for our own episode of Animal Hoarding (2 dogs, 3 rats, 4 guinea pigs, and a painted turtle), but I really want another dog ( Read more... )

My grandma (dad's mom) passed away yesterday ( Read more... )

I am fairly certain that life is conspiring to make it so that I lose both my grandma's within a year of each other. I lost Gammaw, my grandma on my mom's side, last January, and I am fairly certain that my grandma on my dad's side, or Mamaw as we call her, isn't going to make it much longer ( Read more... )

I am so sick of the way my mom acts these days. It's like she's so stressed out and frazzled that she can't even be present in the moment ( Read more... )

I have been absolutely addicted to tumblr for the past few days, but it's starting to piss me off how preachy people can get on there. It's like tumblr is the sounding board for bitching about stuff...

The people who do that aren't people I know personally or anything, but I still feel like it would be mean to unfollow them. Hopefully it's just a

Stolen from Gal8028

List 10 musical artists or bands you like, in no specific order. Do this before reading.

1. My Chemical Romance
2. HIM
3. Adam Lambert
4. Green Day
5. John Barrowman
6. Florent Mothe
7. Fall Out Boy
8. NSYNC (from the old days)
9. Rhianna
10. Patrick Stump

What was the first song you heard by number 5?

What About UsWhat ( Read more... )

Lately I've been doing this thing in my head where I go around in circles debating on whether or not I should buy a new wardrobe. It occurs thusly: When I lose weight, I am going to buy all the cool-ass clothes that I have always wanted; But I really need new clothes now; But I don't want to buy a bunch of new clothes and then have to buy all new ( Read more... )

There have been several people on facebook complaining about Dubstep lately. I really would just like to point out to those people the shear irony of this situation ( Read more... )