As much as I thrive on being by myself... it's very strange to have someone with you for so long. "So Long" being six days... yet seeming like a really long time. My life seems to awkward and unplanned... I'm very torn about just about everything in my life..maybe it's one big gray area.

Today I realized:
I Love Grid ( Read more... )

So I sort of feel like nothing's going right, because apparently nothing really is. Sometimes it doesn't matter if you go to the beach and take your shoes off in the middle of the winter... sometimes it doesn't matter that for a few minutes you're actually doing exactly what you want...and you're not "going through the motions" ( Read more... )

Let's be who we are ( Read more... )

Do you ever just feel like you do and do and do for other people and then you get absolutely nothing back in return. There's never that feedback that I give, there's never anyone listening to what I'm saying. I miss realism ( Read more... )

Just now. I've realized:

I will not live in the past.
I will not project the future.

But more importantly I will not live in the past ( Read more... )

I wish for just a little while that the world would stop spinning and time would stop going and we'd all just be stuck where we were in a time when we were completely content instead of always waiting for something to come. I LOVE anticipation for something but then I always tend to feel so let down after the even has occurred. Months, ( Read more... )

I've written about 100 different entries, fully and then I delete them. I don't know what's going on with me. I got home from work at 8, thought I was going to get killed at the bank, put gas in the car, went to the store with my dad and came home ready to fall asleep. Yet it's 1:30 and I'm awake ( Read more... )

I'm pretty much exhausted. I'm starting to get sick, not sure if I should go to the doctor yet or see if it gets any worse... I want a vacation from everything ( Read more... )

Needless to say, in the most simplified terms: I cannot seem to comprehend my impact on the lives of others. I fear this may become a problem. I also fear that I may never be able to get married due to the fact that being around one person for more than twenty four hours makes me want to run them over with Ursula ( Read more... )

(In sophia petrillo voice ( Read more... )