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House cleaning
I spent all day cleaning. My apartment has been a mess and now it is getting cleaner. Having a ton of Michael's stuff in my apartment doesn't help either. But I went through two tubs today and have a trash bag full of trash. I also got some laundry done and folded (finally. I hate folding it). And I finally put together the bookcase that has been ( Read more... ) -
i was doing good today
I was doing good today until Michael called. I wanted him to call so bad but it ended up making me so upset and so frustrated I couldn't keep talking to him. I was cleaning up the apartment and getting everything squared away so I could get other stuff done. But he called and it made everything worse. I had finally taken my mind off of him and off ( Read more... ) -
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It's one of those days. One of those horrible days. I dont know why but all of the sudden I got the hugest wave of depression. I literally dont want to deal with anything for the rest of the week at least...if not for a few weeks. I miss Michael and since he hasn't called it is making everything worse. I am not okay. I haven't recieved any word ( Read more... ) -
Missing him
So Michael made this little video for me. And I have been holding on to it for awhile so that I could watch when I really needed it. Last night I got depressed because well he told me he wouldn't be able to call me for a few days. So I watched it. And then I played it again and fell asleep to Michael talking to me...I miss him so much. This sucks. ( Read more... ) -
Frustrations and classes
Now that I have been to class and am sort of a bit more awake...I am frustrated by Michael. I know he means well and he wants to buy me a ton of stuff because he want's me to know he cares. But I am sitting here because I have no money to go get food, no food cuz I've already eatten it all. And I don't think he realizes that I am that broke...My ( Read more... ) -
the hate'em stage
I just got off the phone with Michael. He called me at like 7:45 am. I didn't realize it but this morning I got to the I hate him stage of the disorder. I hate him for going to Iraq. I wanted to hang up the phone a couple of times today just because of the things he was saying. I mean he is talking about buying me a ton of stuff, and I am sitting ( Read more... ) -
Today's phone call...
I just got off the phone with Michael, and I didn't mean to sound happy but I guess I did. I was happy to talk to Michael but I dont think he knows just how depressed I really am. I was thinking about starting up on both of my anxiety medications again so that I can try to stay somewhat okay. I miss him so much and it really really really sucks.
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2nd Phone Call
So I got a second call from Michael last night. This time he got to stay on with me for about 21 minutes and 54 seconds....not that I was counting or anything. But he had landed in Iraq like 7 hours before he got to call me. Which was kinda poopy. I am really missing him. But he says that they have this really cool blanket shop over there and what ( Read more... ) -
first phone call...
I got my first phone call from Michael...it lasted all of ten seconds. Hopefully he will call me back again soon. They were forming up so he had to go. But it made me cry so much. I miss him! -
He's gone
Yesterday I left Michael at the motorpool. Now he is headed to Iraq. I am really upset by it all. Yesterday I cried the whole way home and was really too depressed to do anything. I did go get my new driver's license with my new last name on it. Totally cool, because the picture doesn't look like a mug shot. But other than that I have been really ( Read more... )