I just had the scariest dream I've ever had. I woke up drenched in sweat and tears. Here's basically how it went ( Read more... )

i'm in peoria now...sick as a dog, but i'm here. i have no voice, so if anyone calls me, chances are that you won't get me to answer, unless if you really think you can hear me whispering. but yeah, i miss tim a lot a lot a lot...he's gonna be here this weekend though, hopefully until i go back up there to chicago. but anyways, let me know if you ( Read more... )

i'm really in an emotional slump today. i honestly don't know what it is. maybe the weight of all this stuff going on in my life right now is finally setting in. i'm also exceptionally jealous of certain things lately. i hope this doesn't stick around because if it does, it's going to make my boyfriend leave me...and i don't want or need that. all ( Read more... )

this is a first...

i'm losing sleep because someone won't talk to me.

you know who you are :-(

on a happier note...i'm about to get stoned again.

x.x.x.x.
neil.

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ok, so, i really am considering using live journal a lot more now...but i really want a paid account. if anyone wants to donate to the cause, i'd love you for a lifetime (if i don't already) and if my boyfriend says it's ok, i'll even offer sexual favors in return! :-) isn't that exciting ( Read more... )

i'm trying to update this as randomly as possible, because it's a pain in the ass to do so regularly, but i still like to say stuff in here sometimes. i guess i even still write in here because nobody really reads it...at least no one that i'm aware of. i've been strangely nostalgic lately...missing old friends, old times, old places, etc. so it's ( Read more... )

yeah, i know i never update this but ummm, i have a reason this time ( Read more... )

look...i'm alive ( Read more... )

the essential ( Read more... )