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a long time coming....
i haven't done this in years...i don't know if i want comments or not because i haven't written in so long for a reason...writer's block. i don't know if this is the end of that or not, but i don't know if i can handle criticism about it just yet...anyways, here it is ( Read more... ) -
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so drunk.
and i love you rachel for having this first...well, for having it so i could see it for the first time.
In the year 2006 I resolve to:
Give myself an anal probe.
Get your resolution here
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you know everybody knows, they can smell it with their nose, it's poo poo.
so, since my last entry, nothing too monumental has happened, and i think i like it that way. i've been relaxing...a lot. occasionally going to denny's with brandon, watching movies, being on this god forsaken internet, listening to music, blah blah blah. one of my friends offered to let me move in to his house (well, his boyfriend's house, but ( Read more... ) -
life goes on?
i'm trying to be strong. i'm trying to pick up the pieces. but something shits reality back in my face everytime i start feeling like i'm going to get through this. i want to move on. i just want someone to love me in some way, whether it be just spending time with me or holding me or falling asleep next to me, i really just want to feel affection ( Read more... ) -
fatally overdosed
this situation is really hard to deal with. it's near impossible. let me map out the story ( Read more... ) -
fuck.
he lied. and now i'm alone.
fucking unbelievable.
i'm a wreck...i need someone more now than i ever have before.
xx.
neil. -
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i'm extremely frustrated with stuff.
malia...you should get a hold of me a.s.a.p.
xx.
neil. -
return.
i'm home. at my mom's house. but possibly not for very long, or for good. so tell your friends. call me. come see me. kidnap me. anything.
xx.
neil. -
some things you lose and some things you just give away
i'm coming home...for good.
i need all the emotional support i can possibly get right now. i won't have access to the internet, but i will be living at my mom's...so if anyone knows where that is, stop by or call me.
friday...
xx.
neil. -
writing on the wall.
i wish i could run away with someone. not even romantically...just the feeling of leaving everything behind and starting over with a clean slate, and not being alone for it...it just sounds so perfect to me. to have no idea where we're going, no clue when we're stopping, not an inkling of how long we'll stay alive...i'd give anything to have that ( Read more... )