yeah idont want my thing to get deleted so im just writing this.

I feel so internally broken. Like something inside of me just dissappeared. But it's bullshit. I have no idea what I'm saying right now, or even how I'm feeling. It just feels like something is gone. There's just always that nagging feeling that I get. & the brokeness that I feel comes back when I have a spare moment. Everything is so right, but so ( Read more... )

Everything fell into place.

It feels so good
to not be tied down
to not have to answer to anyone
to do whatever

it's a fucking complete turn around
but i still do miss all of my friends

I dont know why i cant stand myself so much sometimes.

i dont know what to do

When your mind is a mess ( Read more... )

shits just the same

Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing to myself. Should I ruin everything I have for a ghost of the past? Sometimes when I close my eyes everything just seems to go by so fast. Mixing up what's now and what was then. Does this even make sense? I don't have anyone. I feel disconnected from everything. Here I am hurting some of my best friends I ( Read more... )

I just smoked a cigarette out my window. And it just make me think of so many things. Memories from some of the greatest times I've ever had. The past. Late night talks in the summer when it was perfectly warm out. Late night walks around my neighborhood. All of the memories with my girls. Actually having meaningful convorsations. Talking about ( Read more... )

This isn't who I am ( Read more... )

I know I’ve said this a thousand times for all of the stupid things that I do. Or times that I hurt you. But I’m sorry. I know I really messed up this time and I’d do anything for you to not be mad at me anymore. Except I don’t know what to do, because I’m bad at things like that. So maybe writing something here like I should have done will help at ( Read more... )