This entry is about trying to accept my place in the world and to work and make it better. I haven't been doing alot of thinking the past year, not thinking about me, thinking about art, or thinking about who I am! I remember about two years ago thinking that I didn't like who I've turned into, but as of late, I feel like I'm just not who I ( Read more... )

Seriously, that was the longest drawn out break-up of my life. and all I can say is of course, 20/20 in hindsight ( Read more... )

writing thousands of cover letters to jobs I will most likely not get, I guess just because that's how this silly little game called life works ( Read more... )

If you had told me last year at this time that I would still be living with my parents, working at olive garden, dating a man who is in love with the fact that he's white trash, and still not any closer to getting an actual job, I would have been super depressed. Luckily, I didn't know that, which means I'm just depressed now, and not then ( Read more... )

but I'm gonna have to bitch for just a second.

Because it had been brought to my attention two times in the past two days, I just wanted to ask one simple question, why am I single, aka, not spoken for, without someone who wants to be with me day and night who isn't a girl?

I was watching some wedding show tonight, and this woman, this man's ( Read more... )

I love molly ( Read more... )

so, I really like this one guy, ALOT, but he lives a long way away. it sucks. I really wish he didn't live so far away. And he's SO hot, it's kinda unbelievable. Like, every time I think about him, I just get all happy and smiley, and it's totally great.

and I ESPECIALLY like cuddling with him, he's a way good cuddler, among other things.

<3 ( Read more... )

Strangely enough, I actually went to a work holiday party on Christmas Eve. I never wanted to be friends with any of my colleagues because I just go to OG to work not to make friends, and I never thought the type of people I met there would be any worth while, but how wrong ( Read more... )

It's christmas time, and this year, kinda like always, I've just ignored the whole hoopla ( Read more... )

I feel so lethargic, and dumb, and just plain lazy. I don't know what to do to make me feel better. I don't feel sad, but it's just the same thing every day, and I just wish I had fun adventures like I use to. I can't believe I reminisce about college now. I'm totally not looking forward to the rest of my life. Even things I thought mattered a ( Read more... )