had this dream this morning that i'm in an apartment...and i'm waiting for someone...i'm at his computer looking at AIM and i see cory's online and see that this 'tracker' option shows that he's 1 mile away. and ithink about IM'ing him. and then the guy i've been waiting for walks in the door. i forget all about AIM. he puts his stuff on the bed ( Read more... )

everything reminds me of him. whenever i go to bed, he's what i think of. when i wake up...guess who i wish was holding me ( Read more... )

so i read ross' blog on myspace. and i realized that we're more alike than i thought. we're always told how different we are from eachother. but i read his blog...and found that we're both longing for the same things ( Read more... )

so wednesday. at 230. my grandpa died. where was i? not with him. i was taking my history exam.
if there is a god, like what some of my friends tell me, this makes me disbelieve everything. GOD WOULD NOT DO THIS. so there. fuck that. i'm blitter and sad and i can't do anything but cry.

how many times am i going to be let down by these friends here ( Read more... )

man...these past two days were so crazy. delaware trip. man...i'm glad it over with. but this week is going to kill me. i've got like 3 exams. 2 on wednesday i believe. but luckily no classes friday, and tomorrow no band. so that's a relief ( Read more... )

man tomorrow's delaware. what a weekend this will be. i dont like going on band trips. i feel uncomfortable and and frustrated the whole time. more so than when i'm not on band trips ( Read more... )

alrighty. so my halloween costume, i think it's gonna work out ok. i'm going to be the 'guinness girl' but because guinness doesn't have a girl, i'm just being an irish bar wench. so it works out. in a way. it's an excuse to drink guinness and have my boobs out. well...not totally out, cause that's be weird, but to have a low cut shirt showing my ( Read more... )

man...why am i in love ( Read more... )

And if i could swim I'd swim out to you in the ocean ( Read more... )