i haven't posted since, what, july i think? yeah. just keeping hope alive.

PREFACE: i typed this as fast as i could so i wouldn't forget anything and it still took me 45 minutes. i know there are plenty of spelling/punctuation errors. bear with me. read this shit and comment on it because it scares the shit out of me ( Read more... )

i found out yesterday that someone thinks i'm fine and wants to hook it up. very flattering considering this guy...i'm getting dressed right now so i can pass by and make him drool :p ( Read more... )

everytime i come here to type something depressing comes out ( Read more... )

i am high and can't decide what to put in this entry.

wow i had a weird dream this morning ( Read more... )

today, right now, i am upset ( Read more... )

After almost four years I have accepted that he is never going to forgive me, he is never going to mature, and I have beat myself up for too long. I have apologized profusely to deaf ears, I have begged for forgiveness, and all it does it empower him. He has never respected me, he will never forgive me for the mistakes I made, and I am DONE ( Read more... )

i haven't felt like writing in here much at all lately. or reading, for that matter. i'm working a lot...that takes up most of my time. i've been spending most of my available free time with a new guy named andrew. i started taking birth control again. i have some seniority at work. halloween is this weekend. i'm going to be a pirate.

i visited my brother and his wife in orlando a couple of weeks ago, and it was a very welcome, much needed vacation. ben even drove up from naples and spent the weekend with us. he won carrie over by cooking with her, and he won kevin over with the volvo and the video game and music talk. great week. didn't get to see jason ( Read more... )