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Gender Identity
I may have alienated myself from ever being able to identify as female. I think if I had had stronger role models as a child I would never have questioned my gender identity. But then at that age I did identity a lot more with boys so would it have mattered ( Read more... ) -
Undoing Cipralex
I found out I was pregnant 6 weeks ago so I stopped doing my medication. I was on such a small dose that my doctor said it would be fine, and it has been. So I don't know if it's been coming off that or the oncoming mood swings that has spurred my anxiety and anger and there IS NO PATIENCE for stupid people. Already today I told off someone about ( Read more... ) -
Changes
So many changes have occured. Erik had gone from saying he wanted to be a father, to not wanting it to be his sperm, to saying he should move out when the baby's born because not enough room - really?? To saying he should just be the Uncle. And that last one killed it. Why the fuck am I prolonging getting pregnant for that? So I told him I'm not ( Read more... ) -
Rage Inside
I have a rage inside ( Read more... ) -
Partners
Teddy, my other partner, is a real chick. We have the same body type which is... odd? Very cool and cute though. He's fucking adorable. A little prissy, and a little too neat and clean on absolutely everything... But he has made me the tastiest food ever x_x He made pasta noodles from scratch, pumpkin lattes with his stupid expensive machine, and ( Read more... ) -
Unborn
Erik's condom slipped on Saturday. It was a day for optimal pregnancy. I already told him I wouldn't sucker him into that so we agreed on using Plan B. I took it yesterday. And so last night it's not surprising I dreamt a child turned into a rock in my stomach, about the size of my fist, and disfigured my skin into putty. I could hold that portion ( Read more... ) -
A New Life
I have fallen in love. We've shared so much with each other. We're both afraid we're just in the honeymoon phase but everything is syncing. We've already talked about a future together. Or more, he thought long and hard before coming to me with this: He's said if I waited a year to enjoy our relationship he would provide sperm without going through ( Read more... ) -
Sex Kitten
So apparently I've become what they call a sex kitten. I'm a lot like the woman I see in the mirror. About a month ago I decided "Fuck it, I'll take who I want" and proceeded to take home the two hottest boys at the rave. Part of it was to bring up my self esteem, another part was bitterness. I've wasted so much time on my past partners and the ( Read more... ) -
Olives
I dremt I was eating green pimento olives. I've only tried small slivers hidden in sandwiches. In my dream they were vinegary and rubbery like hard boiled egg white. I didn't particularly like them but I wanted to keep trying ( Read more... ) -
Tooth Dream
Last night I dreamt one of my front teeth had wildly displaced itself in my mouth. So I shifted it back into place and put my retainers on so it wouldn't fall out. Blood was accruing everywhere but I thought, "I paid too much for this shit ( Read more... )