"Last month a 19-year-old overdosed on heroin twice in a week but survived. The third time he wasn't so lucky. He died Jan. 31 in Pontiac from a mix of heroin and a cancer drug. The fatality came just two weeks after a 39-year-old Royal Oak man overdosed on heroin and died." god damnit. cant you see? 3 times in a week? he was trying to accomplish ( Read more... )

i cant believe... i've lost the very best of me ( Read more... )

today was suprisingly too long of a day. i woke up, took my car in for an exhaust.. then for an oil change and radiator flush.. then back to the oil change place cuz something was wrong but they fixed it. and then i slept from like 7 - 10 and now i am getting tired again. ughhh. i wish kyle wasnt working. im scared to call him now though.. lol ill ( Read more... )

today i got my car legal, so i drove over to racheals and we went to brandys house and then to the cemetary, but we got stopped at a railroad for like 25 minutes.. not kidding. lol and so we get to the cemetary.. and its closed! cuz their workers are on strike! wtf. lol so i take her back home and i come home and take a bath. then i go over to ( Read more... )

i just went back and read my old journal, and it was all about like kevin and then when i met blaine, and i was so happy. i remember how different it was in the beginning than in the end. in the beginning blaine was a hardass who didnt care about much, but tried to be a good boyfriend.. and in the end, he cared about me, he was a great boyfriend, ( Read more... )

my life is completely meaningless.. i have nothing to wake up for. i understand i was just coming to terms that me and blaine were over, but i dont think ill ever come to terms with the fact that he died. i miss him so much, every morning i wake up to pictures of him on my wall, and all the death notices and stuff. i just.. wish i were there too. ( Read more... )

Blaine Alexander Brabant- Rest in peace. i know you are happy now. i miss you, but i know you always loved me and i loved you. us against the world and we made it.. but now its just me. i have you everyday of my life.. in my mind, in my heart, and forever in my love. dont you ever forget what we had, because we changed eachother. i loved you with ( Read more... )

heelllll yeaaaahhh boyyyy

good afternoon. i should be getting ready. but im not.

tomorrow is my 30 days, and boy, am i excited.. and proud.

i officially graduated from high school, today i went up and turned stuff in and its final. im walkin in june! whoooo! and i qualify for a scholarship so yeaaaah it will be good.

i wish i had loads of money.. life would be great.

so yeah work yesterday was horrible. i left crying harder than a baby who got ran over. i felt like such a loser lol my boss opened fire on me cuz he was in a bad mood and im PMSing and i cry too much. lol he just bitched and bitched so i left. not quit, i just left for the night ( Read more... )