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Dream of strange..
The last couple of nights I've been having this continuous dream and it's beginning to make me feel like I'm crazy because some of the things in the dream randomly appear while I'm awake. The weirdest part is it's one of the battle against good and evil dreams and for once in my life I'm the hero. There's a girl in my dream I'm trying to protect ( Read more... ) -
The list of things going on in my life.
So because I can't sleep at night because all of this has been rolling around in my head I figured I'd get it all out in the one place no one goes to anymore.. So here we go ( Read more... ) -
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me is a question I've been asking myself lately.... I'm stressed to the point of throwing up, I'm depressed,I'm home sick, I'm back to having a short temper, and the one I hate the most is the crying. Sometimes I wonder if shouldn't just commit myself and call it good. And if you're going to ask if I'm pregnant that would be a no ( Read more... ) -
I just Don't know
I can't do it I'm done with covering up the person I really am just to try and keep people happy. Found out last night when I drink that gets bad because then I explode. Also next time I make plans I'm sticking to the fucking plan I don't give a shit whose birthday it is.. We had drunk sledding planed out for almost a whole fuckin month even built ( Read more... ) -
UGH
I guess I kind of get this but I'm confused at why it keeps happening.. Dustin as most know was adopted by his dad when he was 5 (yes his mom is his real mom) when his little brother was born. Ever since he was little his tried to get Mikes approval in any way he can. He does one little thing even now and he always says "I can hear now what my dad ( Read more... ) -
So life update
tired of people trying to tell me how I should live my life. I'm tired of people trying to tell me what's good for MY kid. He's a good kid I don't need you to tell me how to rais him. And I was told today that I'm not a very good parent because I send my kid with his grandparents every other weekend and that I need to take care of my own kid. I'm ( Read more... ) -
ALONE
I feel like I've been floating in the land of nothing and lonelyness and I don't know what to do. I don't know what's wrong with me. I either get really mad or I cry. I wish I could bring myself to go crawling back to my anxity meds. But it's been 3 years and I think I can handle this myself or well I hope I can. I just wish I had someone to talk ( Read more... ) -
O well.... I guess...
So I was told since Dustin claimed me as a dependent on his tax return that at least $1500 of it was mine.. Haha right Tax return gets to go to bills and car and more bills Dustin's armor and Shawnee's bed room. So my part goes to bills I don't really mind I just hate empty promises ( Read more... ) -
UGH
I'm tired ofbeing ignored. I tired of everything. I'm tired of feeling a lone in a house full of people and I hate feeling like I'm always talking to myse;f at least if I were a little bit more crazy I'd have a reason for no one to answer me or listen. I feel like I'm only here to be a nanny :( and I've tried to talk to Dustin about it but once ( Read more... ) -
I just can't stop these feelings
So for the last few days I've been emotionally freaking out but I think I know why.... Since Christmas eve I've been cleaning up other peoples puke and cleaning my house. I've been dealing with people I don't really like and who are very disrespectful and I'm tired of it yesterday I said something to Dustin about it ( Read more... )