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Over the course of my lifetime of reading and absorbing ideas I have become very wary of iconoclasm. Perhaps it is one of my greatest fears and it is one that I am extremely sensitive to. You see, I am an iconoclast myself. I can't even say 'I used to be an iconoclast', I can only say that I am one and that iconoclasm is what I fear most.

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I wake up alone again. This time on the air mattress my ex-wife and I bought so my mother would have a place to sleep when she visited us. It's comfortable as it goes but sometimes I wonder as I talk to various young people, my age and older, who would ever want to sleep with me? I sleep on an air mattress in a room of a shared house with windows ( Read more... )

I wake up again and the rain rattles the sides of the tent and I check myself to see if I peed but I can't tell because I am soaked to the waste and the entire bottom of the tent is covered with water. I get  up and go outside and there is nowhere anywhere in the forest for miles around where I can escape from the rain. I'm outside Kildaire, ( Read more... )

I am so lost and alone in the middle of a tunnel in a dream on the edge of a windy sea ( Read more... )

I went to trance dance last night. Twenty people wearing blindfolds dancing for an hour and twenty minutes. (No peeking.) At one point I partnered with someone and began to dance in a tango style. I have no idea who it was. Different variants of music but sadly no dubstep, which seems to be universally popular with everyone I meet these days ( Read more... )

Love in the Time of Recession

Not that I can change anything,
and not that anything ever changes,
but sometimes an event happens so fast
you miss it and wake up
in another city with another woman
surrounded by a new set of cats and dogs
and a new set of theoretical children
playing games with the ghosts
of other children that never gave birth to ( Read more... )

I'm lying in my backyard at four o'clock on a sunny last Tuesday of August in the Newtown neighborhood of Sarasota watching fire ants transport their cargo along the last two or three threads of the hammock's edge from the mango tree at my head to the palm tree at my feet. They don't bother me and only an occasional scout explores my body to assess ( Read more... )

I need to confront my loneliness. I need to confront my boredom. Seeking an escape from my pain and loneliness will only make things worse in the long run. I need to find a healthy equilibrium for myself. This is the start of the next chapter in my life. I want to start well. First I need to begin some good habits and end some bad ones ( Read more... )

Erika emailed me the paperwork. Then I called her to ask about the specifics. She said they had to be synchronized in order for it to go through. Then we got into an argument about whether or not I had to pay taxes. Finally I asked if I could come over because A.) Other than at Goodwill I don't have access to a printer. B.) We had to have the forms ( Read more... )