Does anyone know of a weekday job that would hire me just until school starts?  I am SOOO incredibly bored here, I'm ready to eat my own hand just for the adventure of it all.

They put some of Nick's music up on his website.  Please go to it and listen to his solo song, if you would like.  It is so beautiful.

God, I miss him so much.

www.nicktine.com/music/

I'm not going to go into a lot of detail, and I considered not writing this at all, but I write everything on here ( Read more... )

I just feel so helpless and hopeless ( Read more... )

I am so fucking pissed at everyone.  How the hell do you get money from people who tell you they have no money to give you ( Read more... )

I went to a therapist yesterday and she assured me that Julie is a toxic person and the best thing I could have done was leave.  She also assured me that I am not taking too long grieving.  I was worried that I should be fine like lots of other people seem to be, but I am still crying every day.  
I also went to the chiropractor, who took x-rays and ( Read more... )

Well, I left.  Julie was pissed.  She told me I make rash and emotional decisions and I run to my mother whenever I have a problem.  She also told me I need counseling.  I told her I had no one in Florida.  She said that was not true, that I had her.  She is so fucking full of herself. She feels she can judge everyone from her golden untouchable ( Read more... )

So, my plan is to stay with the kids tomorrow.  Julie gets home tomorrow night.  The kids said that when she saw me crying the other day, she told them she didn't know how much longer I could stay here, so I think she may take it easier than I thought.  I'll talk to her tomorrow night, or Friday morning if she gets back too late.  Then I'll go to ( Read more... )

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Fuck it.  No matter what she says to me, I'm leaving anyway.

I'm done.