i realize i dont update this account very much... i guess thats because it represents who i used to be, not who i am, or think i am now. so this is the last update i'll be making in this journal. if you'd like my new lj username, leave a comment and i'll tell you what it is... if not, well, okay then.

the animosity is slowly fading away, and sometimes i wonder why you didn't make it 'friends only'. and sometimes i wonder if you'll ever read this.

when i wanted to talk you weren't around. when i didn't want to you wouldn't leave me alone. when you should have been concerned you weren't. now that you are concerned you shouldn't be. when i'm alone i cant find myself. when i cant find myself i learn more about who i am. when i learn more about who i am i forget more about who i used to be ( Read more... )

i ate a bowl of raspberry jell-o on the deck at 5:35am this morning and listened to the power lines talk to each other. it was sort of cold, but the wind wasn't blowing so i sat down on a blue fold-up chair. wearing my white socks life somehow felt different and i wished i had a ciggarette.

Conscious self
Overall self

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( my lovely trip to the dentist )

i cant remember what i did today.

i dont think i did anything at all.

i hurt though.

i guess i remember watching television.

i dont really have any energy to really post anything.  i just wrote an unusually long email, and it took a lot of energy.

i guess what i'm feeling can be summed up in the subject line.  so there isn't any need for me to ( Read more... )

did the sound to narrows today.  12k.  you know, 7.5 miles really isn't that far...  i've done it three times before and i thought i'd do a lot better today.  but i haven't exercised in over three weeks because i got a cold.  sucky excuse. i know...  dont do that.  dont get to the point where you can jog 4-6 miles a day (slowly though...  really ( Read more... )

so i went to visit my old friends at spring valley today... well not really. but it was their eighth grade graduation so yeah...  congradulations to brenna, taylor, jonathan, shawn, and justin even though most likely none of them will ever read this...  you're freshman now.  ha.  dont worry, its only one year.  you'll be happier when you're finally ( Read more... )

gave myself a haircut... yeah. that was smart.
oh well... hair grows back right? yes.
and its not like i shaved it all off or anything.

kids. dont do this at home.