Psychology sessions are having an effect. They're dislodging something at any rate - enough for me to want to actively blog more ( Read more... )

Went to a clinical psychologist today after symptoms of depression were on the uptick again.

His diagnosis: dysthymia.

Sounds about right.

I get the impression that I've had it for the entirety of my adult life.

Well, at least now I know.

Further treatment recommended by the psychologist, over a period of several months. I hope I can afford it

Possibly exhibiting my masochistic tendencies by trying to turn Ubuntu to the task of video editing. Avidemux is (just) up the job of cutting and splicing basic video, and not much else. Fortunately that's pretty much all that I'm after ( Read more... )

For my elective Utopias and Dystopias (an elective subject that I find makes me think about stuff I find interesting just for the hell of it rather than for any pre-determined purpose laid out by the subject, which is exactly what I think an elective should be), I have read - I mean really read - The End of History and the Last Man. I'm slowly ( Read more... )

Working 3 days a week now, Friday, Saturday and Sunday, so I get weekend rates on some days. Excellent.

I have no work tonight. Or tomorrow night. Or the night after.

I have an assignment due Wednesday. I've barely started it.

Life is good.

"Pick a policy area to study and present on" seems straightforward enough, although the proviso that it needs to be one in which there are substantial policy differences between the political parties narrows the field. Then there's just how comprehensive some policy areas can be ( Read more... )

Nick finally gave me permission to install a version of linux on one of our computers. Our laptop has had Ubuntu on it for a couple of days now. Works a treat ( Read more... )

Some basic research that I did at university has led me to believe that one of the most important things in defining gay people on both an individual and social level is the emotion of shame ( Read more... )

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Symptoms that I recognise as precursors to severe depression, if not evidence of depression itself, have been especially strong over the past month or so: a strong desire to somehow transport myself away from my very identity, a need to withdraw from others combined with a keening sense of my own social isolation (this paradoxical combination of ( Read more... )