Jake Rain: Yah, when you're in town perhaps we should launch a search party for your ass. Since you seem to have misplaced it.

equipoiselost2: oh I'm eatin some chicken fried steak to get that back

GOD BLESS ATIVAN.

It doesn't take the hurt away, but it does make me forget where the floor is sometimes. The cat's face also seems bigger. Catface. PURRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I AM REALLY REALLY FUCKED UP NOW ( Read more... )

On the second day of my trip leaving Florida, April 3rd, I woke up after very little sleep in a shitty hotel room on the Virginia border. I felt empty, heart-wrenching rejection and rage, that stabbing pain in my heart, disbelief over how things had turned out and how much I'd lost, undeniably the worst suffering I've ever felt. How could he do ( Read more... )

In about a week, I am driving (with the cats) to Florida to live in a little place on the beach on Anna Maria island. I plan to catch fishies and seahorses for my own sadistic viewing enjoyment, and build lots of sand-thingers. I just need a little cassette boom box, because I want to stock up on cheap audio books, and my spacebus has no cassette ( Read more... )

I am so sleep-deprived I shouldn't even be posting. Things are okay. Rodger's therapy has been going well. We are struggling financially, and I am sick to death of it. I have two jobs now. I'm tired and pissy pretty much all the time. Rodger and I have conflicting work schedules and don't get enough time together. I hate that. I'm lonely. ( Read more... )

A rotund little Mexican man in a work shirt just rapped on my door. I opened the door a little and poked my head out.

He said "Hel-looo, you wanna a-buy some COOK-EEZ?"

*blinks*

What happened to girl scouts?

We had a fight this morning, and he put his hands on me. Spit in my eye, shoved me into the wall, said he was going to hurt me and rip my head off. I called the cops. He proceeded to call me nasty names and say he wasn't going to leave until he's ready. Cops showed up, and they got him to agree to go sleep at work tonight. The apartment ( Read more... )

It seems like every year, I morph into a different version of myself. Usually wiser, happier. Last year, I went through an amazing transformation and had never been happier. I was laid-back, spiritual, able to enjoy each day for what it was, able to see and soak in every beautiful sight and breeze on my skin ( Read more... )

The kitten is in heat. So are all the cats outside. I can't sleep. Lu Bu is trying to do her 24 hours a day (failing, he's neutered). We have to put every penny we can into this move, but Lily needs a spayin'. Can anyone recommend a LOW-COST spay and neuter place? Every vet I call quotes me $200-$300, and I know it's possible to get it done ( Read more... )