why is it that even when life seems to be going pretty great deep down i'm so unhappy. i'm missing something and i can't figure out what it is.

i'll take you for who you are, if you take me for everything.

for years i was the one that  hardly drank or anything of that matter. always the designated driver, always the one you called for a couch to sleep on, a ride home, or a shoulder to lean on. you had your fun, the drinking and the drugs. and i sat back, never judging just being the friend you could count on. i start drinking more, and everyone blows ( Read more... )

i would like to go back to when life was simple.
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. 

i feel like i try so hard to be your friend. when i shouldnt really have to try at all.

 i'm ready to move. i need to get away. i need a change. 
it's funny how the people you love the most are the ones who hurt you the worst.
it's okay because i'll convince myself "it wasn't meant to be" 
and i'll laugh until it doesn't hurt. 

we started laughing till it didn't hurt.

i'm  bored. it's my night off and i'm doing nothing. i'm sick of rancho. i'm sick of the people here. i'm looking for change. but really i'm looking for strength so i can make a change.

why do i feel like my life is going in fucking circles?!

i really need to change some things.
a lot of things.
but will i?

" i'm tired of being down, i got no fight ( Read more... )

 i know how to play this part a little too well.
smile when others are there and then cry myself to sleep at night.
i always wished my biggest worry was something stupid like boy trouble.
i could handle that. 
i can't handle this. 
i wish i didn't wake up every morning.