i don't understand it, why does my heart sink and my stomach drop when i see her or more especially when i see them together. when i think of them being friends i don't mind, i want them to be. Mark and i have stayed good friends so why can't they. but as soon as he talks about it or i see them, her i can't but feel this why. it is a curl up in ( Read more... )

I am going to Venice!! it is hard to believe that in 3 and half months i will be off this continent for the first time. and there is no bakcing out now. i am nervous and excited all at the same time. i hope it is amazing but like always i am looking for any flaw. i don't understand my obsession with looking for the bad things and it is getting ( Read more... )

so i have several things i could do tonight but i can't make up my mind. they all have there ups and downs of course. one is to go with QMT for alumni night but i am not in drama and don't know these people very well. it also is far away and involves nice clothes which i don't have here. another is to go out with Tim and Chris. i like being ( Read more... )

my fear of turning 20 we for no reason. in fact like ever other birthday i don't feel any older. and actually i like that i can say i am 20 now, i've always been mature, haha well kinda. but 20 seems right now. fitting for university ( Read more... )

i feel like i am forgetting something but i don't know what it is. perhaps it is that i am 20 now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! i don't feel like it but maybe that is a good thing. can't wait to party with my young hip friends. haha, i really am losing it now.

back in kingston at my own computer, oh i live it. mostly because it works fast and is on fast internet. i didn't realize how busy i would be with this costume thing. and now i am getting a little scared about finishing my essay for art history. why do i always leave things to the last minute. well gotta go dirty some clothes and grab something ( Read more... )

when i come home from finishing an exam i want to spend time with my bf ( Read more... )

I have become addicted to the library. so addicted that even when it gives me a headache to even think anymore i can't leave. i'd rather sit and stare at the many books looming over me. i am sad it closes at 11 tonight, what will i do with my time. i suppose go home and sleep to prepare for more library tomorrow. anyone want to join my at Douglas. ( Read more... )

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i hate when you are writing an essay and you think of an awesome idea on how to construct it only to find out that two of the paragraphs are essentially talking about the same thing. the outline seems so good until you go to write it
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