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Mourning
Every time I think about Russell its a stab to my heart. It will never make sense. He was here and smiling a week before he died. No one besides family saw him after that. I will always struggle in finding meaning behind that. If any. I can confirm it now after a few months. The world without Russell will never be as bright. May as well get used to ( Read more... ) -
Aliwn
Hello stranger. Life changes on a daily basis whether we notice it or not. All we ever have is the moment. Now. And what do we do with it? The most common answer is distraction. Do we realize that? No. That's the norm these days. You say hello to someone and get a strange look and they distance themselves with their phone. I have finally decided ( Read more... ) -
The Wine Must Turn To Blood Again
October 23rd, 2011
another grain joins the pile
myself reflected in the textures
a moment in time
like all the rest
sifting through the sands of memory
searching for you
and all I can find is me
a painful love
this self admiration
this life is just a lesson
prolonged failure
a drowning heart
manipulated, tainted
programmed
nauseous consciousness
gagging on ( Read more... ) -
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What does it mean when you dont even have enough energy to be yourself?
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haha
zurxIts kind of nice to be in on the joke that your life is. At least now I understand everyone's behavior. I just don't know why I care about making each day worth it. I know what I think, but if the mention of me illicits uncontrollable laughter and criticism, what's the point in moving forward? Maybe this was supposed to end years ago after all. Who ( Read more... ) -
destruction
Its been years probably. This is the only appropriate outlet anymore. There is a bomb. Its closer than you think. Hatred and jealousy are not welcome here... but here they come. The time has passed... the life is over. Toss your roses and kiss your loved ones. An empty picture frame filled with ashes. It's never worked before, why would it work now ( Read more... ) -
fuck
Wow I sure have neglected hou for years, LJ. I plan to change that now that my neato phone allows me in here. So much to say. I can at least repost that I have finally left my Moms house and have a decent job that mostly pays the bills. Oh but there is so much internal chaos that needs to be extracted here... soon... nice seeing you again, LJ. ( Read more... ) -
unwitting
It's saturday now. Though, to me, it's still friday ( Read more... ) -
Floating Away
I wanted to log an experience I had yesterday afternoon before any further details fade away into lost memory ( Read more... ) -
Aww Nigga
Tony Eveready: Hell yeah ( Read more... )