and all that hard work that i've been putting in the last few months just instantly became forgotten and my (unknown to me) shortcomings and i guess viewed as shoddy or lack of work was made known in a manner that shocked and hurt me. talk about ruining a day and more...just adds to the already there phsical, emotional and headache inducing ( Read more... )

I guess Facebook has taken up my posting time...and i've neglected LJ ( Read more... )

so, yes, we have been hanging out occassionally and it's been nice. the separation has helped i think. i just have to get away from the fact that yes, we can go to a movie and dinner and laugh and think about former days but it all seems a bit fleeting and then i get nostalgic or sad and we part but in a nice, kind of...hey, had a good few hours ( Read more... )

high of 66 today and nice and sunny...after Danny G's plane lands i'm going to suggest taking a nice walk up to the Brewhouse and sit on their outdoor patio for lunch and a couple of nice cold beers ( Read more... )

so in theory, me and 3 colleagues are to go to DC Tuesday for a meeting on Wednesday. ummm..doesn't really look like that is going to happen and they are supposed to get more snow on Tuesday/Wednesday. i can think of far worse places to be stuck but it just seems like a big headache. i'll find out tomorrow but maybe since i'm not one of the key ( Read more... )

Confusion reigns but such is life. May go to Savannah for the weekend and meet family. Not looking forward to possibly driving the four hours by myself in a rainy Friday rush hour though. Will make my decision tomorrow I guess. If I don't go the only thing on tap for the weekend would be the memorial service for my colleagues little premie baby ( Read more... )

oh my. big change. heartbroken. sad. stayed in a hotel last night with a friend. it's hard to be at the apartment. and i'm freaking out just a little being here. my friend is coming back to stay with me tonight to keep me company so i don't climb the walls, pace, call him...etc. 3.5 years and it looks like it's over. we've been living together ( Read more... )

yesterday was my dear friend's memorial. it was very heavy. a lot in my life the last few months has just seemed heavy. i want that moment when the weight will fill lifted but that will take a lot of guts, heavy introspection and contemplation then action on some difficult decisions. but i must remember that it's my health, happiness and quality of ( Read more... )

so i finally joined Facebook...meh, we'll see. i really see the benefits of it, i just don't want it to be a time consumer.

still going to use LJ though. have used since 2000 i think and will keep it going. also, lj seems a bit more personal to me, with less people reading and no automatic updates, etc.

I'm always proud to be a u of iowa alum but even more so today after a thrilling win over ga tech last night. I wear my Iowa hoodie with pride amongst a sea of ga tech. Go hawks!!