i have logged onto LJ a few times since i last posted, but honestly i dont know where to start so much has happened...

what is new in this fabulous life of mine:
"Tristan" is gone. I don't really wanna talk aobut it right now but he's a jerk off... totally manipulative... and i'm really sad that this shit went down like that because i really did have ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hplN3IEuuo4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SA4yLFZthRQ&feature=related

and my favorite thing : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0VI8j-xfFNE&feature=related

uggh i'm so fat
i dont wanna step on the scale

my mom's narrowed down rehab centers to 2 of them
apparently ppl think i'm lying about going to rehab
ppl think i'm an ( Read more... )

okay basically i was high and stole my dad's morphine
and so he was totally convinced that i took it
he had asked me about it so i decided that i had to move EVERYTHING
so basically i had physcical therapy in teh morning so i had to go to physical therapy with EVERYTHING in my backpack cuz i knew my dad was gona search my room
and my dad called my ( Read more... )

theres this girl that i'm "in a relationship" with but i really dont think she actually likes me i think she likes being liked. today she was all pissed cuz last night i black out drank and "broke up " with her on facebook and "engaged" my friend jeff who i'm gona move in with in a yaer or so.
she keeps telling me i'm too skinny. how i'm THIS CLOSE ( Read more... )

well i havent posted in a while ( Read more... )

i've been soo sick its ridiculous
the "runs" that like i couldnt goto school but my mom made me 
then i lost bladder control
my mom could give a shit less about me, she even said that
i hate myself. i hate my body. i hate everything
ive started cutting again. i really dont want to but its like the only way it seems to get over my pain.
luckily i've lost ( Read more... )

god i'm being so fat.
updates:
a couple days ago my mom came up to me and was like have u eaten dinner? and iwas like yea and shes like what did u eat? and i'm like cereal, cuz i really had eatn it. ad shes like i didnt cu eat it, so she made meeeeee eat, when i was already feeling fat from eating that cereal but i knew i'd need energy for wen my ( Read more... )

http://www.freewebs.com/tasteofperfection/
its all dedicated to ana <33

I love my best friend. She's always there for me. It's great. We're going through this together, always supporting eachother. I don't know what I would do without her.
Probably like REALLY fat.
We're doing this. We're going to be thin. We have to.
She just transferred back to my ( Read more... )

 
So I got my period yesterday. I can’t wait until I stop having one. But I hate myself for what I ate yesterday. But I am proud of myself.
Let me start off with intake:
Juice mix- 65c
+2 spinach salads with vegetarian chicken-about 30c + 116c of (10) chicken strips
( http://www.seeveggiesdifferently.com/product_detail.aspx?family=366&id=4971 )
+4 ( Read more... )

UGGGGGGGGGGGH ( Read more... )