its hot outside and cold inside ( Read more... )

I'm feelin so old lately... I'm achy, i worry about too much, and I'm in bed by nine every night. I'm far too concerned about healthy bowel movements, and most of the people i see lately are the senior citizens at the treatment clinic. they talk about their aches and pains while they knit they're grandkids sweaters. the other day i called a middle ( Read more... )

sis has been sending my sister home with leftover split pea soup form the bar for me. its yummy as hell.

i feel like i have a shitty job again, except i'm workin for free. doctors have my scheduel full, cause they're keepin a closer eye on me this time ( Read more... )

chemo ain't that much different from boozin.
you do it looking for a cure.
either case you end up face in toilet
feeling sicker than before.

i start treatment on monday. one more year.

yup... 14 cycles, 41 weeks.

i do feel like a burden sometimes...

i told my father that because i start radiation treatment tomorrow, it ruined my plans to go visit my girlfriend in New York, whom i haven't seen in two weeks and that i am feelin a bit down because if it. in response, HE told me that i "NEED" to find a job ( Read more... )

...I'm just an asshole without a job.

i don't know how to spend my time anymore. spent all my money, watched all my movies, and read all my books. got all these art supplies but don't wanna use them cause everything i draw lately is crap. I've started to get out a bit more lately, even indulging in the once in awhile alchoholic beverage (I've turned into a cheap date.) hoping to see ( Read more... )