I am wondering how the girl who thought that she had it all can suddenly feel so empty. I am the girl who has a boyfriend and yet right now I feel alone. I am just starting to realize that Jeremy and I aren't in the same place right now. I have been really starting to feel for him and I realized tonight that he is still seing us as a wait and see ( Read more... )

I think that I am finally at a place where I have just about made a choice on the decision that has been looming over my head. Things with Jeremy have been amazing. I know that he is totally crazy about me. It feels good to be wanted like that. He has what I am looking for. I've been looking for someone who can stand by me when things are hard ( Read more... )

I wonder if I am strong enough to do what needs to be done. I know that as much as I love Will that he isn’t ready for me yet. I know and I’m starting to think that he knows that us getting back together is inevitable. Or at least it feels that way. He said that if he fell in love with me again and put energy into making it work that he could see ( Read more... )

I am so bad. I am crazy about someone and it hasn't been that long since I was with Will. Is it possible for me to really feel this quickly? I am totally crazy about Jeremy Spear! I don't know what is wrong with me. Why am I falling for one of my best friends? I'm kind of starting to think that he mite like me too. I had the best time tonight. It ( Read more... )

It is offishially the end of Will Cole being in my life, probably forever. He changed his phone numer so that he doesn't have to talk to me. Him and his new girlfriend can fuck eachothers brains out for all I care. It really and truely is time to move on. I realized something the other day. This break up may actually be a good thing for me. I used ( Read more... )

I'm starting to have my doubts about this Jeremy thing. I went out tonight with him and Lyndsey and I don't know now. I did figure out that I'm pretty sure that I'm not using him to get back at Will. I think I might be feeling something more then anger for once in the last month. But it's kind of complicated. Jeremy and Lyndsey have all of this ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD! I think that I am a very bad girl. I guess that there is good in all of this. This could mean that I'm finally getting over Will (I hope). So tonight I went to a movie with Kyle and Jeremy. So we had to go out to Beaverton to see Kyle so that ment a lot of time that Jeremy and I were alone in the car together. I guess that nothing really ( Read more... )

Today I got to talk to my room mate for the first time. It was a lot of fun. I really think that we are going to be great together. Getting excited about college and moving out has changed some things for me. Now that I'm starting a whole new life the stuff with Will seems less and less important. My life won't involve him anymore. He doesn't know ( Read more... )

Ok it's offishial. I am going crazy. So today Will and I were just screaming at eachother. At first he was saying that we can't be friends because he didn't want things like last night to happen again. I told him that I will never let that happen again. So then he was starting to say forget in I choose Melanie. I know that he still loves me. I told ( Read more... )

I seriously don't think I'm going to be ok anymore. So I was just going to call to leave Will a message because I was upset and then he answered. We were talking and it was great. Then he wanted to have phone sex and I said yes and we started doing it and realized it was wrong even though before we did it I told him it was cheeting and he didn't ( Read more... )