I don't know what's wrong with me. Why do I keep neglecting this journal. I really don't mean to keep doing that. I know that it's part of the reason I just can't seem to stay on track with all this. I'm failing so miserably. I just want it all to end. I want ana to come back to me. I miss her so much. So here I am again, attempting to bring her ( Read more... )

Wow...it's been months. I had forgetten that this really existed. I mean I post about my ed all the time on my forums but I have been neglecting my livejournals. But yeah..months go by and things are still the same. I did quite well with ana through the month of January. But mia is always a constant in my life so I've been with her the past two ( Read more... )

Hey everyone. Ok so I just love the holidays. :-( All's they mean is too much time bickering with siblings, fighting with parents, and eating with family. I hate holidays!! We always go out to breakfast after opening presents, then we go to my Grammy's and eat dinner there. SO a whole day devoted to eating. I ate some egg whites and hashbrowns this ( Read more... )

You are Aura. You are calm, passive, intelligent ( Read more... )

Yesterday I only ate an apple all day. Awesome for me. But I feel like such a failure. Such an insult to ana. Ok so last night I drove to Orlando with my friend Jamie (who I met through an ana community on LiveJournal). We went to this place called Back Booth to watch her friend play (they were having all these random bands play). So we're sitting ( Read more... )

Hey all. Well yesterday I ate a bananna for breakfast, an apple for lunch, and a smoothie for dinner. So that totalled 412 cals for the day. Woot woot go me. today I've had a bananna so far. Gonna go get a smoothie for lunch, don't knwo wat I'll eat for dinner. But who knows. i'm just proud of myself for yesterday. imma keep this up.

Hey everyone. My friend created a new ed forum and I'm trying to find people to register. So far her and I are the only members which is sad. There's not much there at the moment but that's why we need people to register. You can talk about anything and they normally become like your second home.  http://requiredpain.conforums3.com/index.cgi?action ( Read more... )

Ok so I'm gonna try to eat only fruits for one weeks. And only one piece of fruit for each meal. So that'll be about 300-400 cals a day. I don't know if I can do it long but I'm sure as hell going to try. I am so dissappointed in myself. My willpower is like gone. It used to be so strong. But I can do this. I HAVE TO DO THIS! I was down to 125 and ( Read more... )