I plan it in my head, and the words are there ( Read more... )

Things are moving on ( Read more... )

What causes a young woman who is beautiful, kind, talented, artistic, and interesting to have no confidence in herself?  And those adjectives are not my words, but the words of many, many others.  Why is it necessary to have a guy around to prove one's worth ( Read more... )

"I realize, too, that I now have a substantial past, which means that I am no longer young, but have become more interesting to myself."

Shirley Hazzard, The Great Fire

Nateefah had her MRI done yesterday.  So in a couple of days I can call the doc and see if anything has turned up in either that or the bloodwork or pelvic x-ray he ordered.  She is finally getting on her hands and knees occasionally, (20 months of age, 16 1/2 months corrected) and yesterday for the first time she put her hands on the bars of her ( Read more... )

Is it ok to slam doors and scream in here?

Cause if I do it at home, it scares the babies...

But I need to let off steam somewhere.

Life has felt a bit like a steamroller for the past few weeks.  And today, I got a chance to lay the babies down both at the same time, then laid myself down for what was going to be 15 minutes of time to relax.  It's ( Read more... )

I don't often cry in this 'business'.  My heart breaks for these kids - for their pasts, for their stories, for their losses.  But I don't often cry, because a few tears would, I fear, open the floodgates and the flow would never stop.  And then there would be no hope, for hope would drown in the tears.  And I have to have hope in order to let go ( Read more... )

When our kids do something wrong, it is hard on me and R.., and our relationship.

I think I understand more about that after tonight.

I tend to look back, while he looks forward.

Me:   Remember when they were little, how they used to...(insert any cute behavior of said children)          Remember when we were younger, how we used to...(insert ( Read more... )

Lynn needed to get three immunizations the other day, and because of her low platelet count, the shots left huge bruises on her arms.  Poor girl, : (  her arms look so sore ( Read more... )

19 months of age ( Read more... )