My new journal is ohsweetinsanity.livejournal.com
Feel free to add me. It's more of a personal/recovery journal, but I thought I would let you all know that I'm back on livejournal. Maybe get back in touch with a few of you ^.^

livejournal is too triggering ( Read more... )

When I was a young boy
I was honest and I had more self control
If I was tempted I would
Run
Then when I got older I began to lie to get exactly what I wanted when I wanted it
And I wanted it
Now I’m having trouble differentiating between what I want and what I need to make me
Happy
So instead of thinking I just act before I have a ( Read more... )

why is it so hard?
why is there still that voice telling me to be stronger and that i am better than this and don't need food.
can you really go back to normal after being gone for so long?

i need someone to talk to. someone to write to would be nice. i lost all my addresses and letters when i moved.

my apartment

this is where it all goes down. i know, i'm boring.

She wasn't born anorexic, but nowadays she suffers ( Read more... )

OMFG.
I MOVED ALL MY STUFF ON WEDNESDAY.
JUST GOT THE NET SET UP TODAY.
BUT OMFG I'VE GOT MY OWN APARTMENT.
& IT'S COMING TOGETHER SO NICELY ALREADY.
I EVEN JUST GOT A NEW FUCKING TV BECAUSE MY PARENTS DIDN'T WANT TO CARRY MY OLD FLOOR TV DOWN FROM THE THIRD FLOOR.
HOLY SHIT.
THIS IS ALL JUST SINKING IN NOW.
& it's fucking SWEET!!!!!

thursday:

food
lettuce - 60 cals
zucchini - 40 cals
mushrooms - 51 cals
celery - 8 cals
cherry tomatoes - 7 cals
total: 167 calories

exercise
treadmill - 30 minutes
stairmaster - 1 hour
lower body - 30 minutes
total: -750 cals ( Read more... )

tuesday:

food
lettuce - 60 cals
zucchini - 40 cals
mushrooms - 33 cals
celery - 14 cals
total: 146 calories

exercise
treadmill - 30 minutes
stairmaster - 1 hour
lower body - 36 minutes
total: -762 cals ( Read more... )