here's to clean breaks and smooth edges, good luck everyone.

i have one week to pack my things in cardboard boxes and transport them across town. my mother is leaving for six weeks, flying across the country to start a new job on the fifteenth. so i'm moving in with my dad. it's only a contract job, or i would ask to go with her.

i'm not leaving, not yet.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul____axiomatic goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a chick from the '80's.________janedoe tricks you! You get a wad of paper._____typewriter gives you 2 pink vanilla-flavoured wafers.asarin gives you 1 orange raspberry-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.cementgirl tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy! ( Read more... )

i went outside last night, and sat in the driveway.
i watched the clouds float by the moon, and i thought of you.
i could hear the leaves running along the pavement,
and a dog barking in a neighbor's yard.
i ran my fingers along the sole of my shoe, and i thought of my life.ninety-eight degree malaise ( Read more... )

all this time i've been trying to explain myself to you. the long entries, the complicated conversations, and i just realized- i can explain everything in seven words ( ... )

today was painful. i think i was waiting for something. i kept thinking, one more class, just get through one more class... but i have no idea why. and the worst part is, i almost feel worse here than i do at annie wright ( Read more... )

( this is under a cut because, well, frankly, its just me whining and telling you what fools you are. )

so you think you've managed to fool the whole world. too bad the only person you've managed to deceive, is yourself.

everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and i can't let you,
let me down again)false identities, are only truly ficticious when the façade is not effective. reality, real existence, does not reside in the individual, but in ( Read more... )

it's true, that changes are no good and for the most part inevitable. but, even so, some things always remain the same. and its that familiar feeling, that comfort, that reminds us, eventually, you can overcome anything (provided you actually want to).

now, instead of ending on that somewhat pleasant note... ( i shall continue, in my usual way, to [mis]represent myself as the apathetic, supercilious, grandiose person i am. )

i just want someone to have something to say to me.

[EDIT]: oh yeah, and my mom didn't get the job in san francisco. i've given up on her, she'll be jobless forever, or at least until i go to college or something else happens.