so i got tickets to see conor oberst. well not only him but him and other bands. like 20 other bands. its my first concert ever. and im very excited

i was trying to sleep for an hour or so. but i kept thinking about school. i go back to school in 8 weeks. i started thinking about orientation. who ill be with. what kind of kids ill meet. the clothes ill wear. tricks ill land. colleges to visit. places to go. music to listen to. new jersey. tokyo during christmas. my hair getting longer. my tight ( Read more... )

i walked for an hour today. and skated for 2 hours and 30 minutes. i was gonna meet my friend but shes not feeling good. so ill see her tomorrow. i realized that i only need a job for 5 weeks starting next week. i dont even know if i should get a job.

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i picked up a new habit. and i hate it. but it seems like i cant stop. and that makes me feel extremely useless

i felt very useless. and i drew 4 things today. but i threw 3 of them away. and one survived my rage. and im on my way for making a new hat. its looking pretty good. i skated two days in a row. im doing better then i thought.

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i went to a wilderness program last february. and i found a staff from that place on facebook. and i requested her to be my friend. and in return i get this letter saying that "oh ive debated this with my self blah blah blah but i dont think i should be friends with kids from the program blah blah blah im sorry thanks for understanding" and that ( Read more... )

life wasnt too bad today. i talked to an old friend/ex girlfriend today. and i met up with bunch of people. well actually 3. but thats a lot for me. and the cold that i have is getting worse. it sucks. i hope this cold thing would take away some weight along with my energy.

those moodswings just...argh

i fucking hate life. its a bunch of bullshit put together by all lies. i dont see the point in it when its all depressing. there are good parts but its not fucking worth it. theres all these choices that you have to make. and everyone makes a big deal out of everything. and i fucking hate myself. theres no point in this what so ever. i got help but ( Read more... )

i went skateboarding today. all over tokyo. it was so much fun. i wasnt as bad as i thought i was. and i noticed how much i missed it. so ill skate more often now. yesterday night the special something i had with this girl ended. well i asked it to end. we were both so far away. and it was going anywhere. it was unrealistic. it was pointless. and ( Read more... )