ah ok ( Read more... )

and i didn't find out until just now.

that is fucked up.

Thansgiving was ok. I somehow managed to not eat myself into a coma, which is extremely pleasant on my behalf. However it still does not change the fact that I am an obese fucking beast, and due to school scheduling/work I will have to put off going to the gym for at least another two weeks ( Read more... )

the past few days have been so harsh. i really can't handle the holiday season. I really hate seeing my family, because it is a constant reminder on how I am an indecisive fuck up, and consistant on not being able to decide what to do with my life ( Read more... )

so in hopes to get back in the swing of updating this thing more often, I am just going to start off and say that i had the BEST surprise visit ever today from the mushy mush fairy ( Read more... )

maybe its because i am a total fucking heffer, or the fact that i am ugly as a dog that I can't even get the guy I invite out to hang to my friend's house to hang out/possibly kiss me instead of some ho bag i've seen floating around ever hip shit crevice in new jersey over the last five years ( Read more... )

it's always weird when a relationship is cut off with a person completely. i mean they go from them being the apple of your eye to the total opposite. I guess thats where you really have to draw the line at asking your self how strong are you to beleive in people anymore. It's so how some things that are so familiar to you, you really don't even ( Read more... )

well... it hurts being right. the boy and i are no longer an item. I guess he much rather dwell on his insecurities and kiss an ever sillier looking girl.

you know i only just wanted everything to work out like we always used to talk about.

but i guess i'm to fat for that.

i usually don't update this journal much because i find when i do, people i know find it read it and are totally shocked ( Read more... )

Right now I am currently at my Nutley house. I just rode my bike from Montclair to here to look for my bike lock (since I don't have one at my apartment). Dana left for her big European trip, and it definately feels more empty in the house let me tell you. Tiss quite sad ( Read more... )