I wrote a poem the other day.. I didn't really finish it because my mother called and completely fucked up my train of thought, but I think I'll leave it as is or finish it with one sentence and then give it to Jonathan and keep a copy to add to my collection. The poem is about feeling used... kinda. I think I'll write another one tonight about ( Read more... )

SO... to keep one out of the mental hospital you ( Read more... )

Like I said... it's showing it's ugly face... the curse... my illness. My birthday happens to fall on June 15th. The tarot card for my Birthday would be... the devil. Ofcourse. I know. Over and over I speak of this "curse"... well, if you were me you would know of which curse I mean. But, on with the story... I have been in the mental hospital. (I ( Read more... )

I just talked to mom on the phone. It's Sunday.. that means I have to go to Andrews and sit there with nana and do nothing... I'm not going to be ok... I'm already... I don't know. I feel sick.. I am sick.. I'm very sick. I can't do this. I have to figure out something. Nothing to figure out... nowhere to go but to Andrews. I need to take my ( Read more... )

Well... I haven't been near a computer here lately.. I've been staying at my mamaw Nancy's house... not a good place for me. I should have never went. Bad things.. traumatic things.. happen around those people.. and I should have known better. But... I wanted to get back on my family's good side.. so to speak.. and by doing so I... I don't know. I ( Read more... )

I've been at my dad's the last.. however long. The internet and the phone have both been down. It's sucked ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in a while... I haven't really had anything interesting to say. But today I met Marie for the first time and me, her and Justin all hung out and had a pretty good time. We went swimming in the lake and played cards and stuff. Marie seemed pretty cool, and I'd like to hang out with her some more. She said something though, that ( Read more... )

I have succeeded in pissing off the person who means the most to me. And I don't know what to do. I said something really dumb to Kyle... trying to comfort him actually... and I pissed him off so bad. I wish I would just fall over dead. I once convinced myself that if you write down something you wish it would come true, so when I wrote that it ( Read more... )

IN OVER A WEEK... I got to ( Read more... )

So.. I'm about to leave to Andrews, where I have no computer ( Read more... )