it's been years, but i don't know where else to go. i don't know who i've become. i don't recognize myself. i lay awake at night unable to sleep because i think of what i'm missing. i dream of the life in which i am unafraid. i dream of a life in which to be free to say and do whatever i please. i dream of a life without guilt and without shame. it ( Read more... )

if i was made of titanium and steel, he'd still find his way inside. if i was constructed with bolts, nails, and hinges he's still made my knees weak. if i was built with no emotion and no way to feel, he'd still show me love. if i was brought here to march the same way, to erect skyscrapers and to keep to myself, i'd find my way to him. i'd escape ( Read more... )

i've discovered a breeze in between the smallest crevice of two buildings that lye in san francisco. a breath of fresh air that seeps from the gutters of the city and brings warmth during the most crisp of moonlights. it never seemed so strange. but i'm waiting for the bomb to drop on me. i'm waiting for the stench of built up waste to take over. i ( Read more... )

i fuck up and, eventually people stop staring. i continue and they continue, and soon i become within the walls of my own home. voice no longer heard along with footsteps, deep breaths, and tantrums. the sounds i put into the house no longer contribute to the foundation of the house. i might as well have died and had the remainder of my flesh and ( Read more... )

im sorry to all those who were fed a lie. i'm sorry for serving it to you on a silver platter, making it my all, swearing by it. i was living as a slave to a chain of lies, manipulation, pressure, skepticism. i haven't been all there. i rewove my entire idea of life, love, and death to suit the master of the whip at my back. but that is no longer. ( Read more... )

we've made it alongside one another long enough to finally have a history. we've been through traumatic times together, we've done stupid things, we've lost many many on our quest for greatness. we've been at each others' throats, we've been face down in the ( Read more... )

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i have to let go. he wishes to move on, and i see it no other way than to move on with him. if it can't be the way it was i'd rather have him in my life than in no way at all. his heart is now in the hands of another, and i have no way of keeping him from the arms of others, no matter how deceitful those arms might be. i just hope that he will make ( Read more... )

sophie moore was in my dream. sophie moore. i love you. sophie moore. i miss you. sophie moore. where are you?

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