okay. so technically this journal is out of use, but . . . deal with me. I completely lost computer access for much of the christmas break, and then my internet died and modem had to be replaced, and then all my files disappeared. so the end of last year was not a good time for computer stuff. but I'm dealing with it, finishing gifts, working on ( Read more... )

merry christmas.

pagefiftythree.
love,
rachel marie.

Poll one of these things first

two times over, I'm trippin'.

first of all, I have maxed myself out again. and I don't even know how that was possible, because I went thrifty with most of my gifts this year and made a lot of stuff. but I just got to school from the post office, and it turns out I've now spent over $300 this year. I don't know how it happened. I think I have a ( Read more... )

I feel like I don't have anything worth saying anymore. My parents got divorced last week. I'm tired all the time. I just want Christmas to come and then for it to be April and to get into college ( Read more... )

I totally fucked up.

I think I'm more than just a little stressed out. but for once, it's not like a, "omg I have so much to do and I'm so angry ARGH" stress, but rather a calm and cool . . . "I have things to finish," stress. tomorrow I absolutely have to put my University of Southern Cal. supplements in the mail express overnight, and because my teachers at school ( Read more... )

i wonder if it's too grand to want to "change the world ( Read more... )

this past week has been really rough for me. there's no real tangible reason. I can't point the finger to one or two people and shriek that they're upsetting me, I can't point to a bad grade or a man who stole my seat on the bus and pissed me off. but it's general frustration, I think. Ran suggested I might be going through a serious funk. she's ( Read more... )

and people don't get why I'm fucking stressed out all the time. yesterday my mother fell in the hotel she's staying in during her business trip to florida, and now I have to break to my dad that I don't want to spend christmas day with him, I'd rather be with mom and then come up the day after. frankly, I'm over the divorce shit, or at least done ( Read more... )