Oh my god, Valentine's Day is SO MUCH fucking better when you're drunk and being hit on by tons of guys ( Read more... )

I've definitely got the reputation of a slut. As in...it got around school quickly to people that I never expected would know about my sex life. Like, people that have no right to do this joke about how I'll be adding more and more guys to my list. They all make jokes about how maybe I'll have an orgy for Valentine's Day, or how my list should ( Read more... )

My friends try to understand...but they can't. Just as I can't possibly know the frustration of Nicole as she has her jaw wired shut, they just don't know the chaos of courts and hospitals and my own mental dilemmas. I told them that I was so scared about going to court tomorrow, and they sympathized, but they have no idea what that means. They don ( Read more... )

I'm getting even more scared at the thought of...where is my breaking point? What if it's not even something huge? I mean, I've survived abuse and a near fatal car accident and foster care and eating disorders and cutting and depression and alcoholism and more. What if someday I oversleep, or I get a bad grade, or someone disses me, and that's the ( Read more... )

So much for the peace and calm that lasted less than one day. God, I am so scared. I've rarely been this scared before in my life. I'm in tears and I honestly don't know what to do ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel a little crazy, simply because I'm too subdued and peaceful. I sit in class, my newly red hair shining like fire in the sunlight, and I rest my head on my desk and relax. I think serenely about how Kurt is back with Amanda, and Tony is still with his girlfriend, and Paul has found a new girlfriend, and Alex has Erin, and Dave has ( Read more... )

Oh yeah...you know how Nicole's cousin Molly hung out with us for the first time on Saturday night? Well, she gave Nicole an outsider's opinion on our group. She said that Erin was pretty, and that Alex was a stoner ( Read more... )

I suppose there were a few redeeming factors to today. Me and Nicole had to make this presentation for History today, and the class voted on the best presentations, and me and Nicole won. Surprisingly, considering that we didn't prepare and just did it impromptu. We get twenty-five extra credit points for that. And, after school, Kyle and our ( Read more... )

Fuck! I didn't eat anything all day, and then I get home and binge my ass off. All day I listened to the rumble of my empty stomach. I sipped my water and was proud. I felt light-headed at cheerleading practice and felt rather nostalgic. Then I get home, and I start crying all of a sudden, and I eat a ton: pasta, bologna, toast, Poptarts. I gained ( Read more... )

And just for kicks...you wanna know what song lyrics Alex told me reminded him of me? It's shocking, really. I never would've thought I would have this reputation - me, who didn't have a date until freshman year. Me, who didn't even sleep with someone until I was sixteen. Me, who was the one with the pristine record. Fuck. Now look what's happened ( Read more... )