I really should come here to vent more... I'm in a bit of a rough spot right now. My babies dad wants to be a family but he treats me like shit when he's drunk ONLY when he's drunk... problem is he wants to drink 5 - 7 days a week. he's a sweetheart when he's not drinking but even then we dont have much in common our relationship is mostly physical ( Read more... )

I have a kid now a petite little strawberry blond firecracker that takes after her mommy you can see her at myspace.com/aciddust anyways yeah i'm doing alright i guess i miss my friends and my boyfriend but other than utterly hating where i'm at and being so severely depressed that shotguns look like fun toys i'm doing fanfuckingtastic love you all ( Read more... )

So im 8 months and waiting it seems this is taking forever. Its hot as hell and im miserable ill post a better entry when i get to a computer

Well most of you prolly know that i'm pregnant :D well i went to the doc friday for my 20 week ultrasound and TADA! It's a GIRL!!!! heh i'm pretty excited she has all her fingers and toes and everything looks normal she has a really nice head if i do say so myself lol anyways yeah figured i would post since someone (ADRIAN) pushed me into it :-p ( Read more... )

I havent posted in ages but there is a logical reason... I have no internet at home so yeah nothing really important or new in my life well except Ray my boyfriend he's awesome! i'm doing well other than being a bit broke here and there my car caught on fire a few months ago but ray is working on fixing it so it's all good anyways if you have any ( Read more... )

The pain that one goes through in every day life is enough to drive one insane. How is it that humans in general can withstand constant bombardment of outter pressure and still stand upright? I'm not talking gravity babe i'm talking the constant want and need to be accepted by society... Why is it so important to people in general to be accepted? ( Read more... )

So i'm sick as a dog i feel like a mac truck ran over me BUT! I got the keys to MY apartment today... yes i said MY apartment damnit it's all mine 2 whole bedrooms and everything i'm so fucking excited... Someone deleted my myspace account without my knowledge which sucks monkey balls cause now i have to re make it or whatever which yeah pisses me ( Read more... )

I'm back online :D I got a new phone that has data connect capabilities and yeah so i have broadband internet at home which is awesome :D I'm doin alright i guess... I work 40 hours a week at the gas station and no longer have the job at the book store so thats a load off me... I got an apartment inbetween gulfport and biloxi for wicked cheap ($475 ( Read more... )

I cut off all my hair again heh I look like a little girl again which is awesome... I'm feeling a bit better today then I was the other day... I got a second job at an Exxon station working 40 hours a week and for every 40 hour week I complete I get a $100 bonus on my pay check so thats awesome... Ladonna is being really awesome about it she's ( Read more... )

Firstly I'm re opening my journal so anyone can read it... Secondly I'm an ass... I miss my husband so fucking bad... I miss the little things like the way he snored softly at night or the way he would hold me in the mornings while hitting the snooze button two or three times... I miss his scent and his quirky ways... I miss the arguments and i ( Read more... )