i got a job at the royal gorge zipline. it fuckin rules.

i develop crushes on every man who gives me attention.

i have precancerous cells in my cervix.

i think the colloquial term for that is "whore crotch."

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this has truly been the best year of my life. i had the best new years. holy shit. i danced so much. it was amazing.

can't decide what i want to do right now. i've been depressed. it may be the weather--it's been raining a lot. but also, i don't know if this is where i want to be for much longer. i'm thinking of moving to the other side. or at least to a more central location. like haiku. or lahaina. but i can't decide if i want to get a job and an apartment or ( Read more... )

boy oh boy am i pleased right now. i fucked up everything and it turned out even better than before. so on ryan's birthday i wound up drinking a jug of carlo rossi and having sex with austin. it was a big fucked up ordeal. i kept crying and pushing him off me and he kept insisting that ryan didn't give a shit about me and he wouldn't care and ( Read more... )

shit is fucked but at least i'm super tan.

the thing about him is that he's just...fucked. i guess when he got his girlfriend pregnant he's the one who convinced her to keep the baby. i asked him why he left and he said it was because he was unhappy, working all the time, living in the suburbs etc etc. he kept talking about how they raised her well, in the past tense like she's ten and she' ( Read more... )

fuckin ehhhh i'm so torn. things are weird between us as usual. i kind of like him but at the same time i think he's just bad for me to be around. i feel like it might be time to get serious about someone and i can't be serious about him. he's just not that person. he's good for fun and for sex but he's not a long term kind of guy. can't decide if ( Read more... )