whats that? its summer? oh... yeaaaaaaah

im sorry but sometimes i really feel like just a waste of a human being. why did god even create me? yeah ill stop the complaining and the whining and being upset, just sitting here, thinking, wondering, as always. and realizing what ive always known, everyday it just switches on and off.. this past week's just been a whirlwind of emotions and ( Read more... )

it has taken me this long to realize how thankful i am for all these people. the people whom i have grown up with, and changed with, and have known from 10 years ago, to 1 year ago. im so damn lucky to have these people in my life, and i havent realized it until now, but im so happy that ive made the decisions that i have. the one thing i have to ( Read more... )

just showered. i miss last year. unusual feelings are taking over me, feelings i never thought that id feel again, you couldnt even imagine who im talking about. so odd, but he doesnt think anything of it. my hairs wet and im cold. sitting here rapped in my blanket, lucy barking in the background. im sick of people not taking advantage of ( Read more... )

Im bored with everything, again. I need changes, and yet i dont want to take the chances of being let down. Im scared of change, so so scared. today mrs.shivetts was reading dream interpreting papers, and it said that what your nightmares are about are usually always your biggest fears, and just shows that you need to overcome them. yeah well mine ( Read more... )

i dont fit in ( Read more... )

third day of ashleys flu. AWESOME. ive been sitting inside for the past three days, im gonna go crazy. my throat feels like theres an orversized apple in it, while its already horribly sore. not looking foward to going back to school though, not only do i just hate school, but next day i go, my mom told me i have to make my decision about saratoga ( Read more... )

I feel like im alone in this little room, constantly just here, listening to fighting and cheating and things Im not supposed to hear. I dont complain, I dont yell, I dont fight. I just sit here in my little room, and vent to myself. Myself is my psychiatrist. I am the person who gets me through each day. I dont like jealousy, I dont like hatred, I ( Read more... )

I know I dont know you ( Read more... )

I miss the rush, the feeling in the pit of your stomach, wondering what will happen next, loving the suspense, having something to look forward to, having so many feelings you cant even describe them, challenging yourself to care so much about one thing, compliments, emotions up and down, smiling, crying, and loving every second of it. thats how i ( Read more... )